Happy Halloween!

KB's football team won their second football game today. They won 42 to 0. The thing was that their head coach and one of the assistant coaches stepped down due to conflicts between the coaches. It seems that 4 men can't behave themselves in a civilised manner. This win means that KB will be going to the playoffs, so instead of 1 more week of football, we have 2 at least. They have improved each week. You can really tell a difference in the way they play.

I took the kids trick or treating. KG was a lion. BG was a tiger. KB was a ninja, and I have no idea what TB was. I think he just wanted candy. KG hated trick or treating the first couple of times. TB griped because he wanted to go ToT with his friends. I was on my way home because KG was screaming and crying, so I told TB that he could go ahead and go with his friends. KB said that he wanted to go home. We decided though that we would ToT on the way home. KG really got into it. We ended up staying out later than TB. KG though said the bucket of candy was hers. She won't share. That isn't shocking at all.

I had stopped at Kohl's today to get the boys one of their Christmas presents. They decided to go through the basket to hunt for something. I made them put the presents up. I know they would have enjoyed the remote control helicopters.

Other than that, today has been very uneventful. I really missed Hubster tonight. It just isn't the same with him gone. I'm tired tonight, and I'm fixing to head to bed.

What a Football Game!

I don't have much of a voice this morning because I yelled a LOT last night. It was a GREAT game. Our team won 17 to 14. They clinched a playoff berth for the first time since 2003. The game started with both teams scoring touchdowns on their first drives. Then SS went on to score a field goal to take a 10 to 7 lead. With 5 minutes left in the first half, the other tear went ahead 14 to 10. With time running out the Indians (the other team) made it down to the 1 yard line, but time had expired in the half. The Indians went into half time leading14 to 10. We got the opening kick off, and SS marched it down the field for a 17 to 14 lead. It was a game of defense from that point on. With 5 minutes left in the game, the Indians turned the ball over on downs. SS was marching down the field, and there was only 20 seconds left in the game. SS had 4th down at the Indians 8, when we fumbled the ball. Their player picked up the ball and ran it back to SS's 30 yard line. They had 4 chances to get into the end zone, but our defense held them. We won 17 to 14. It was exciting. It was a great game. SS guaranteed themselves a playoff spot for the first time since 2003. I'm hoping that the first playoff game isn't so far away that I can't go. Oh please don't be. Oh please don't be.

In other news, the girls got themselves 2 pairs of shoes each and 3 outfits yesterday. They had to have new dress shoes for church, and KG has outgrown everything. I can't believe how big my little girl is getting. The boys are doing good. They are both ungrounded until I hear about this weeks test scores. We found out that we are going to be moving on November 21. I'm not looking forward to that. My parents are moving on the 14th, and then we are moving on the 21st. My parents are buying a 2 story 4 bedroom house, so we are going to move in with them until March. That will give me some time to really save some money. That way we can move into a bigger house. We pretty much stay here now any way. I've already disconnected everything at our house but electric and water. I gave our notice to our landlord. I really wish he had a little bit bigger house in the area. He is so nice, and I really enjoy dealing with him. If anybody wants to come help us move, you are more than welcome too. We could use all the help we can get.

KB is either going to be in the playoffs come November 14, or he will be in a weekend tournament on the 14th. We are not sure which yet. We should know more at the end of today. He has a football game at 3. I can't wait to see him play. I'm hoping that they will get another win.

I got to talk to Hubster yesterday for 40 minutes on the phone. It was so nice to hear his voice. I love you Hubster. I miss you!

I Get the Worst Parent Ever Award

I'm going to win the award for it today. I accidentally locked KG in my van. When I pull the van into the garage, I always open the sun roof and roll down the windows. I leave my keys in the console. That way the kids don't go running off with them. It was a little chilly outside, so I cracked open the sunroof about 8 inches. I threw the keys into the console. When I got out of the van, I hit the lock button with my elbow. Then I shut the door. As soon as I shut the door, I knew exactly what I had done. KG just laughed for the first 10 minutes as we tried to get it unlocked. Then she started screaming. I remembered that my car insurance had road side assistance, so I gave them a call. They told me it was going to be 20 minutes to get to me. My dad made it home, and he ended up getting her out using a golf club and he attached a thick clothes hanger to the end with tape. He was able to push the unlock button. She was stuck in there for 40 minutes. I felt terrible.

KG woke up this morning at 230, and she was awake till about 3. At which point, BG woke up and screamed for 2 solid hours. I couldn't get her calmed down. She finally fell back asleep at 530. I had to get up a little after 7. The girls decided not to nap today either. What was up with that? I was so tired, that all I wanted to do was sleep.

TB announced to me at 9 PM that he still had homework. He has 5 comp. checks in science due tomorrow. There is one of them that I have no idea how in the world that he can do it. It is one of those that you label. Hmmmm, what to do.

I got to chat online with Hubster today for a bit. I teared up when he said good night. I miss him. Somebody said the other day that this feels like it is getting harder each day instead of easier. I miss him more and more each day. We will just keep chugging along. Each day down is one day closer.

Trunk or Treat

We had trunk or treat at church tonight. BG is still sick, so she stayed home with Grandma and Grandpa. KG hated it at first. Some of the costumes really scared her. The boys didn't want to do the trunk or treat first, so they went into the gym and played carnival games. When they were done with that, they came back outside. They started getting panicky because they so lightening. That meant they didn't do the trunk or treat, so they didn't get any candy. Oh well, they still have trick or treating on Saturday. KG did end up having fun when she realized that if she put out her bucket, that people would give her things. It was really cute. She would say thank you, and then head off for the next trunk. Lots of people at church checking on me and talking to me tonight. It was very nice with how busy that place was. Needless to say I got lots of hugs tonight. Hugs that were needed.

I've been working on a trip to Paris for a customer. Who will eventually buy it, but until he does, he is a pain in the butt.

I started my paperwork today to start back to school. Getting excited and nervous about this all at the same time. I'm hoping that I can do it with 4 kids. It is something that I want to do for myself though. That is important to me.

I'm supposed to meet another wife tomorrow for supper for her birthday. It should be fun. I'm going to take the girls with me. They had best be on their best behavior. I talked to another wife tonight who has had a very rough 2 months. I hope that she knows that she is loved, and that there are lots of prayers going up for her and her family.

Haven't really gotten to chat a lot with Hubster over the last week. They have been busy, and then the day that he has a chance to chat, I was busy. I miss talking to him. I didn't realize exactly how much that I would miss him or miss hearing his voice. I don't think any thing can prepare you for that loneliness.

I'm Wiped Out

BG hasn't slept very well the last two days. That means I haven't slept in the last two days. She went to bed tonight at 830, and I'm fixing to head that way myself. KG has been asleep since before 7. Oh, I hope she doesn't wake up. Please, don't wake up.

BG is still not feeling all that well. The doctor prescribed her an antibiotic for an viral infection. There is something going on with her besides the thrush. The thrush is looking a little better. She actually finally ate today for me. She gobbled down some chicken noodle soup both at lunch and at supper. She ate some ice. She drank a glass of tea. I'm hoping that she is on the mend. I don't like it when she is sick.

KG has been a toot the last few days. Today she threw the cat in the bathtub while I was taking a bath. The kitten was trying to use me as a climbing toy to get out. Then she sprayed BG with windex. I swear I'm going to pull my hair out. She has just been a royal toot lately. Whatever it is that has over taken her little body needs to get out. I want my sweet little girl back.

KB got in trouble at school, so that means he got in trouble at home. He was told that he had best go and apologize to his teacher tomorrow for arguing with her. Seems that he had gotten in trouble yesterday too, and I didn't know about it. He had best be glad that Hubster was not home. I have no idea what has happened to that child.

TB has been working hard all week to get things done, but he was arguing with grandma at school today too. What is up with these boys? I'm beginning to feel like a failure. Where have I gone wrong?

Today for me has been blah. I don't know how to really describe it. It has just been a blah day. I think part of it is because I'm tired. This not getting a full nights sleep because I'm still getting up with the girls is starting to get to me. I would pay good money to get a full nights sleep uninterrupted. I have really missed Bill today, and I'm starting to worry about money. I should really get a job, but I'm wanting to go back to school. I will figure it out. I always do.

Hubster, I love you.

I'm beginning to really love my Mondays...

Those are my kid free 5 hour days. I went to drop off the girls at Mrs. H's house, and KG was running up to the door. She was telling me that she was going to play and to have fun. BG though was a different story. She woke up this morning perfectly fine. She touched the cat, and her nose started running. Her eyes got red and puffy. I gave her some benadryl, and off in the car we went. She fell asleep on the short drive. She was crying when I passed her off to Mrs. H. I told Mrs. H. to just lay her down that she should go to sleep. I had told her about the benadryl and the cat.

After dropping off the girls, I went to meet Angie at Mimi's cafe. The food was wonderful. Nothing like having an omelet with monterrey jack cheese, avocado, and bacon. It was divine. After we were done eating, we went to Garden Ridge and Kohls. Time flew by, but I had so much fun.

I went and picked the girls up. BG was fussy, but I didn't think anything about it when I got her. She usually clings to me when I pick her up. We got home, and she was acting like she was hungry. I got her something to eat, and she started screaming. She was telling me ouch, and she was pointing to her mouth. I picked her up, and looked in there thinking that she was going to have some teeth. She had a mouth full of thrush, the poor baby. I called her doctor, and they told me to bring her in immediately. That he would want to see her. We got there, and the baby is running a fever of 101.6. I had no idea where the fever came from. He checked her out, and everything was all clear. He decided that he was going to go ahead and prescribe her some antibiotics. She ate some ice cream when we got home. Then my parents got her some yogurt to eat tonight because she would cry when anything would touch her moth. She seemed to be able to eat that. I gave her the medicine for the thrush. That was not fun holding her down while I swabbed her sores. She was laughing and playing by the time she went to bed. The sores still look horrible, and I feel terrible that I missed them.

She has also taken to sleeping on my bed until I go to bed. She is wanting to be such a big girl. She is such a joy.

The boys are grounded for the week. They both failed their spelling tests, and then TB has 2 zeros in Bible because he didn't even attempt to say his Bible verses the last 2 weeks. His teacher told him that he could make up the 2 weeks, but she wouldn't give him more than a 50. He will have time to do study them because I am now the proud keeper of 2 cell phones and 2 extra tvs. They will learn that I mean business, and they are going to feel funny come Saturday when they aren't allowed to play outside. They will spend that time studying for the next test until it is time to trick or treat.

I'm going to have to make a doctor's appointment for my shoulder. It is killing me, and I can't lift my arm above my shoulder without sharp pains shooting down my arm. I have no idea what I have done to it. There are certain places that you can touch that it hurts to even touch it. Guess I need to be taking care of myself.

Hubster, I love you. I wish I could have chatted more with you than the few minutes that we got. I hope that you have a wonderful day.

For a day that started off so bad...

it certainly turned out good. Hubster texted me at 730 this morning. I of course ended up missing Sunday school, but we did make it to church. Today was that day though where if anybody even looked at me, I would cry. The mom of the boy that KB stayed with last night came up to talk to me before the service started. I did good. She asked me if I needed anything, and that is when the tears started. I couldn't get them to stop. I composed myself. Told her no that I was fine, and I went into the sanctuary. Where I promptly cried again the next time somebody asked how I was doing. I hate crying. It makes me feel weak. It doesn't really do any good except to make my nose run and my eyes to puff up. Church though was great. The song service was wonderful, and we sang one of my all time favorite songs. "Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone)" by Chris Tomlin. If you have never heard the song, here is the link to the video on youtube. I couldn't embed it here, but I will post the link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pqJsBRFdrA0

Then Pastor C delivered an amazing sermon as always. After church, we went out to lunch with Angie and Michael. It was so nice. They wouldn't let me pay for our food. That was so sweet of them. After church, TB, the Girls, and I ran home for a few hours. We had to return to church tonight. The boys needed to start practicing for the Christmas recital plus we had to pick up KB. I caught myself singing though on the way to church. I was listening to the Christian music station, and I caught myself singing. This is a huge deal to me. It has been forever since I have felt like singing. I don't know what it was that happened between 11 AM and 5 PM, but I was looking forward to going to church. It has been awhile since that has happened. I got to church and 2 different people cornered me. They were telling me what they were going to do. Not giving me a chance to say I was fine. I don't need anything. Then the pastor's wife brought me out a basket of bath goodies. She had written me the sweetest note. It was just so nice. I guess I felt very loved today by our church family. Satan had been trying for months to pull me down, and he had nearly succeeded. God though had a different plan, and He showed me tonight exactly how much people really do care. I can't tell you enough how much I needed that.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to be going to lunch with Angie. I'm hoping that her son and my BG is feeling okay. Here is praying that both of them are just fine tomorrow because it sounds like tomorrow could turn out to be fun.

Hubster, I miss you beyond words. Thank you for the email. I will reply to it. I promise. Just give me a bit to think about it. I need to have the right words. As far as the other email, that is what I'm here for. Know that you are loved and missed not only by me but by about 100 people at church who holler at me all the time asking how you are doing. You will know which people those are. I'm sure of it.

What a long day...

and not in a bad way either. We were on the go from the moment I got up this morning. I'm wiped out, and I'm ready to go to bed.

First off, BG decided that 4 AM was the perfect time to wake up. She finally went back to sleep at 6. KG decided that 630 was a good time to get up. She never went back to sleep. I didn't even get morning coffee this morning. I had to get things together for KB, so that it would all be ready by the time he got home from J's house. KB arrived right at 830. He got dressed, and I ran him up to the football field. Then KG and I went and got some breakfast to bring home for everybody. Got home about 915, and I had to get everybody else ready to go. We left the house around 950 for the football game. KB's team lost 40 to 0. I don't think they gained any yards at all. It looked like they were playing a team that was 2 to 3 years older than them. That is how much bigger the other team was. The boys had fun though, so that is what matters at this point in the game. I didn't think the game was ever going to end, but it finally did around noon. I came home. Got to chat online with Hubster for about 20 minutes, and then I had to leave the house. It makes me feel so bad when I have to leave. Got KB's things ready for tomorrow, and off we went to meet C's mom to drop off KB. He has never spent the night over there. I hope he behaves and has a good time. Then the girls and TB went with me up on base. I had to get some laundry detergent, and it is the cheapest place to get it. I was already over there, so I swung by. We made it home at 415, and I had to leave the house at 445 to get to Boo at the Zoo on time. It was a freaking mad house. We enjoyed the other Seabee families, but I can't take much of crowds. I'm okay for a little while, but then anxiety starts to kick in. We only stayed about an 1.5 before we decided to leave. The kids had a ball though, and that is what matters. TB kept playing bumper cars/stroller with SD and her little boy. They would race when there wasn't people around. Which wasn't very often. The kids were hungry, and TB was wanting Mexican. We were close to Oscar's, so that is where we headed. It was as yummy as always. They have the best Mexican food around. We were leaving and Danny wanted to know where Hubster was. I told him that he had deployed to the Middle East. I made him promise not to tell Hubster that he saw me. I guess the cat is out of the bag. I figure that Oscar's will be one of our first stops once Hubster gets home from the Middle East.

Now, we are back at home. The kids are all asleep, and I'm fixing to be.

Hubster, I'm sorry I had to rush off today. I hate when that happens. I love you, and I hope that you have a wonderful day.

It's Friday!!!!

I don't know why I care so much since I don't work outside the home, but I do care. I care because that means another week has come and gone. That means we are one week closer to this being over.

KB is staying at a friend's house tonight. I made sure that J's parents understood that I have to have him home at 830 in the morning. He has to be up at the football field at 9 for his game. Then he is going to stay with another friend on Saturday night. He has a busy weekend.

I have to run and get the things for the kid's costumes tomorrow. I don't need much for KG. She is going as a cat, and she already has the black jumpsuit. She put it on today, and told me that she was pretty. She also went around today saying dad gum it. I was cracking up at her. I'm hoping that BG is not coming down with a cold. Her nose has been terrible all morning, but their has not been any fever. We went out to eat pizza for supper tonight, and they have one of those machines that have the grabbers for stuffed animals. We ended up winning 3 animals, so we gave one to a little kid that kept saying that he wanted one. He had the biggest smile on his face.

Hubster called on Skype today, but KG hogged him. This is when I hate him not having a phone. He couldn't talk to me because of her. I finally just gave up, and I let them talk to each other. It was really disappointing. I know that she is only 2, but him being on the computer means I can't just lock myself in another room. She shares a room with her sister who was asleep, so I couldn't put her in her room.

Tomorrow is zoo day. We are really looking forward to it. We aren't going to be able to do the pumpkin patch. Money just isn't there plus I have so much to do before the zoo. TB asked if he could take somebody with him. I don't mind taking another kid as long as they pay for themselves. I'm not paying for them to go.

Hubster and I discussed today about how much that he can spend on the kids Christmas. Things are going to be tighter than I like, but I told him to take $50 per kid. He was already looking online to see what he could get them. I hope they appreciate that he is thinking about them on the other side of the world.

I have been doing pretty good today, but I need a break. I need a break from being a mom. I need a break with some other adults. I want nothing more than to go out for an evening with other adults and have dinner and to do something fun. Do I have any takers? Anybody.......? That is what I thought. UGH!

Hubster, I love you. I wish I could have talked or chatted online with you more today. Miss you. We have another week down.

One More Day till the Weekend.

Only one more day till the weekend. The weekend is shaping up to be busy. That is good. We have KB's football game at 10 AM on Saturday. Then we are supposed to go to the Pumpkin Patch, but that might have to be canceled. It will depend on just exactly what time I'm going to be meeting KB's friend for them to pick him up. He is going to spend the night at their house Saturday night. Then we are going to a special thing at the zoo that evening. I think it should be fun. I hope so any way. I wish I still had the boys wagon. That would have been perfect for them at the zoo, but I think the boys broke it. I can't remember. Sunday is our normal church day.

KG continued her day and evening of being a little toot. She has definitely been 2 today. BG has a nasty nose, and I'm hoping she isn't getting sick. Please don't be getting sick. The boys have had good days. KB was filthy when he got home from football practice. The field was muddy from all of the rain from yesterday. He said that practice was great. That he blocked his man like he was supposed to. I told him no to let R pull him down by his face mask any more. All he has to do is to get R on the ground before him. TB came in and got his homework done quickly again. That makes it nice not having to stay on him to get his homework done.

We had a hodgepodge for supper tonight. We had bacon, avocado, and egg sandwiches, macaroni and tomato soup (that BG loved), and mac and cheese with hot dog octopuses. We had a little bit of everything. If you ever get a chance, look for cherry preserves from Smuckers. It is delicious. I found it at the PX the other day, and I love it. It is so good. It is my new favorite jelly.

I'm plugging along and doing good. Hubster mentioned tonight that he had been there a month already. This deployment is moving faster than I could have ever hoped. I know there are days that it creeps. I wish it was over, but I know that one day it is going to be over. I'm looking forward to that day.

2 Year Old for Sale

It is not even 10 AM here yet, and I'm ready to pull my hair out. KG has been up since 5 AM. She woke up at that time wanting something to drink, and she never went back to sleep. That is fine. She thankfully just stayed in bed, so I was able to doze on and off until it was time for the boys to get up. I woke up to the boys sleeping on the floor on each side of my bed. Not a problem. Except when they were getting up, they woke up BG. Ended up getting out of bed then. KG bounced right up. Since KG has been up, she has done the following:

1. She took of BG's diaper because BG was wet. BG then promptly peed on the floor.
2. She emptied out all of the diaper wipes. She balled them up and threw them all over the place.
3. She has jumped on the bed.
4. She has changed clothes 3 times now. She has learned how to dress herself.
5. She isn't neat when she puts the clothes up.
6. She has "helped" BG get into the dryer, and then she has shut the door.
7. She has ran around with a baseball bat. I didn't even know we had a baseball bat.
8. She has emptied out 2 drawers.
9. She has also learned to climb up onto the kitchen island. This allows her to play in the water.
10. She also took one of my roses out of the arrangement and destroyed it.

I needed to run errands today. I don't think I will. I'm not taking her any where. She has done all of this with a great big smile on her face. I do love the child, but she has been on a tear today. I really wouldn't sale her, but I will certainly loan her out if anybody wants to borrow her.

Wonderful Wednesday

This is going to be short. I'm typing while at the same time holding BG. She has been extra cranky today. I hope she isn't coming down with something.

The boys got their report cards. TB failed reading with a 69. UGH! All of his other grades were great for him. KB failed 2 classes. School this year has been an ordeal. KB told me that he has decided that he doesn't want to play basketball after all. I was so happy. They both really need to focus on school work.

KG brought me fingernail polish today. She wanted her toe nails painted. When I was done, she said they were so pretty. I have no idea where the polish came from.

Other than that, there wasn't much going on today. I got to talk to Hubster via Skype. BG was crying for her daddy, so he called on Skype. That way she could see him. She was trying to get to him through the computer screen. She has been missing him.

I'm trying to help put together a Seabee Wife trip in January to the casinos and in February an overnight trip. We need something to look forward to after the holidays. I'm hoping that the holidays fly by.

This weekend is supposed to be the pumpkin patch and Boo at the Zoo on Saturday. That is on top of KB's football game earlier in the day. I'm thinking something is going to have to give, so it will probably be the pumpkin patch. I'm not sure yet though. Oh well, I will have it figured out by Saturday. Whatever we do, I'm sure it will be fun.

Made it to church tonight. It was good. We had a guest pastor because our pastor has been at a youth rally. Found out tonight that one of the couples in our Sunday School class is pregnant with their first baby in April. I'm very happy for them. They are wanting 4 kids too. They are newlyweds too. They got married during the first part of the summer. Makes me happy though that I'm not the one that is pregnant. I'm glad that my baby days are now over. Didn't think I would ever feel that way, but I finally do.

Terrific Tuesday....

Why yes, today was a terrific Tuesday. Why do you ask? Today, I decided that I was going to have a better attitude. I told you that I was going to think about maybe part of my problem with feeling unliked was me. Decided that part of it is my problem. Actually, a lot of it is my problem.

Today was Time out for Moms at church. We do this the 3rd Tuesday of every month. The church brings in a very nice homeschool family who watch all of the kids for those moms who want to go and do something with other moms from church. Today was lunch at LeMadelines. May I just say it was delicious. Going to have to eat there again a few more times. There were 8 of us that went, and I am so glad that I did go. I am hoping that this will be the change that I need in order to really get back into the swing of things at church. I told one of the ladies there that I have been disappointed in some things that have/have not happened at church, and it is one of the reasons that I am having such a hard time going. When I got back home, I had a special surprise waiting for me from my extra sweet, wonderful, loving husband. He had sent me 2 dozen roses for no reason.

The boys came right home from school and did their homework without any fighting. It was such a nice surprise. We mailed off Hubster's 2nd care package of the week. This one had some tools in it that I didn't put in the last one plus some extra things for him. I hope he likes it. KB was upset when he got in from practice. He had to do extra running because the coach's kid kept saying that it was him missing the blocks, and then another kid kept pulling him by his face mask. He was not happy. TB is loving band. I can't wait for him to start playing the saxophone next year. The girls are doing good. BG was sitting on the couch carrying on a conversation with her Daddy. I could understand Daddy and yea and then she would clap her hands. It was so cute. KG keeps getting in the dryer. I have to watch out for her. BG is developing such a firecracker personality. I love it. She was holding onto TB's shorts tonight walking down the hall hollering at him. It was so cute.

I talked to another Seabee wife tonight. This is the wife that I talked to once a week last go around. I was telling her that I missed our chats, and she agreed. Told me that we needed to meet up for lunch. See, the attitude adjustment helped. Maybe part of the problem really was me.

Tomorrow night is church and Awana's at church. I can't wait. Our pastor won't be there, but the special preacher is actually pretty good himself.

Hubster I love you. You do NOT know how incredibly happy I was to see those beautiful flowers. It makes me feel so loved that you are thousands and thousands of miles away, and you still think about me. Thank you for everything that you do for us as a family.

Woo Hoo it was a Monday!

It was actually not all bad, but the feelings of loneliness and inadequacy were rampant.

I don't feel like I have been able to do any thing right. My weight is bothering me, and the more it bothers me, the less I do about it. I don't want to be this way, and the only person that can change it is me. As soon as I can figure out how to make it to the gym again, I'm going to go. They won't keep the kids in the kid area if they cry incessantly. The girls do pretty good with the boys in there, but with KB's football practices, I don't have time to go. The boys complain about everything. They can't be happy with what they have got or what I do. I am only 1 person, and I can only do so much. I can't be 2 places at once. They are always wanting more and more. They are getting better than they were when Hubster left though. We are moving in the right direction, but it literally wears me out emotionally.

Today was sitter day for the girls. They both cried when I dropped them off. KG only cried for 5 minutes, and when I picked her up, she was telling me about how much fun she was had. She was all excited. BG though was asleep, and she clung to me when I picked her up. The guilt will start up and eat away at me. I went to the mall I used to work at. I hate that place, but I was supposed to meet somebody for lunch today. I called her at 11 like I was supposed to, and she never answered. I decided to go and see Couples Retreat instead. It was cute and funny. I did like it. I also didn't realize that AMC only charges $5 for a matinee. I will have to store that info away for future reference. I got out of the movie, and she still hadn't called. I decided that I would eat lunch by myself, and go and pick up the girls. This has been the way things have gone for me over the last 2 to 4 months. I have people tell me they are going to do this and that, and it never happens. I have plans made, and nobody shows up or they cancel. I don't get invited to go any where. I'm beginning to think there is something seriously wrong with me. Why does this happen to me? Am I that unlikeable? I wasn't shocked at all today by what happened. As a matter of fact, I even told Hubster earlier that this exact thing would happen. Even at supper tonight with Keith's football team, I sat in a corner by myself. I guess I look unapproachable, and I must have the personality of a toad.

We are supposed to go to a pumpkin patch and the zoo on Saturday. I'm thinking that I'm going to cancel. I'm not sure yet.

I think I need to get into a better mindset than the one that I am in. What I am feeling is my head playing with my emotions. I think part of my problem is that last deployment I had somebody that I called at least 1 time a week. I would sit in my bathroom at home and chat with her for a few hours on a Friday or Saturday night. Either I would call her, or she would call me. We always though checked in with each other. When I got some news on Friday that was a little unnerving, I didn't know who to call to talk to about it. I ended up calling AM, but she has so much on her plate right now. I feel bad for even bothering her.

Tomorrow is supposed to be Time out for Moms at church. I will play this one by ear in the morning.

The good thing is though, even with all of that going on in my head. I still feel 100% loved by Hubster. I was very lucky to find that man in a club across a room playing pool. Even then my heart sped up and went pitter patter, and to this day 12 years later, I still get the pitter patter and the butterflies. I know there are not many that can say that. He told me today that he loved me even though I was looney. Gosh, golley, gee whiz, I love that man.

I also know that these feelings will eventually disappear. They will disappear just as fast as they showed up because even though I have these feelings, I know part of the problem is actually me. I don't pick up the phone and call anybody. I'm not good at that. I'm not good at picking up the phone and calling people. I feel like I am intruding. Maybe I should work on that. Hmmmmm, something to ponder while I'm laying in bed tonight not able to sleep yet again. :)

Sunday...the end of another week

Another week has come to an end. I can't even tell you how many more weeks are left. I just know there are a lot, and I'm ready for this to be done. The weekend wasn't bad per se. It was pretty busy, so that seemed to make it go by fairly quickly. The week coming up is looking extremely busy along with the weekend coming up. I hope that bodes well. We are creeping up on the end of October. Slowly but surely, one day at a time we are getting through this deployment.

KB's team won their very first football game on Saturday. They won 34 to 8, so they get a pizza party from their coaches tomorrow night after practice. The boys were very excited. They finally faced a team that was about the same size as them. That makes a huge difference. Other than KB's football game on Saturday, we didn't really have much else going on.

We did make it to church this morning, but we missed the evening service. Still having a hard time going on Sundays. Wednesdays don't bother me near as much. We had a birthday party to go to today for my friend's 8 year old. Then we made a trip to WallyWorld. I hate that place. Hubster though was needing a new electric razor. His broke.

I got to talk to him Saturday. They actually had an unplanned day off, and he was telling me about his adventure. It sounds fascinating, and I'm glad that he got that adventure. It helps to put things into perspective. I chatted with him online for a little bit today. I hope he has a wonderful week.

I'm beginning to feel like I'm not liked. I have no idea where that thought is coming from, but I feel myself pulling away and shutting down emotionally. I hear people making plans to meet and have dinner, and I'm never invited to go any where. I hate the games my mind is playing on me. It blows.

Hubster, love you bunches. Miss you.

Another Day...Well it is another day

The day started off good. It did. I was in a good mood. Even though I was woke up at 530 by a sweet babbling girl hollering Momma. I tried to ignore her, but she was going to have none of that. Finally gave up at 630, and I got out of bed with her. Chatted online for a little while with my best friend. Then things started to go south.

I don't know how to explain it. Went to take KB his food, and I realized that after about 10 minutes into his lunch that his food was wrong. Thankfully I was still sitting in the parking lot because another Seabee wife had texted me. She was having a problem, and she wanted my take on it. This is their first deployment, and their marriage is not handling this deployment very well. It makes me thankful for the wonderful husband that I have. As much as he irritates me at times, I wouldn't trade him for any thing. Had to end up taking KB out of school to run and grab him so lunch. He had to inhale it on the way back to school, so he wouldn't be late. Got home, and I waited around until nearly 4 for Hubster to get online. He got online, and we got to chat for about 30 minutes. It is nice that he can make me laugh and smile across the miles. He had gotten his package that I had mailed out last Friday. Pretty impressed with the turn around time. They had already eaten most of the candy. He was nice and shared. I got requests for specific things in the next box. That one should go out on Monday. Hopefully this one will arrive just as quick.

Took the kids to Target tonight, so that we could get the special popcorn that Daddy had requested. The boys had money burning holes in their pockets. I was so proud of myself for not giving into them wanting more money. Score 1 for Mom. She said no, and she meant no. No matter how much they whined and complained. TB nearly wore me down, but I straightened my spine and kept my ground. I won that battle. Yes, I was patting myself on the back when I left.

And with all that, I still can't exactly explain why the day was blah.

I'm sleepy, so this is going to be short....

Today has been a good day. Hubster called me at 430 this morning. He forgot about what time it was, but that was okay. I will talk to him at any time. He had gotten his "Halloween" care package. I guess it was a big hit in their can. Seems that I didn't realize that Hubster doesn't chew gum, but I sent him some. Two of the guys were fighting over it. I guess the guy that picked the other one up won the gum.

I was imagining today what there little 6 x 6 home smells like with 4 guys in it. I can imagine that it stinks to high heaven, so I will be sending something to see if that will help with the smell any in the next package.

I went and picked the van up today from the mechanic. $217 and I was out the door, but it drives oh so nice and smooth and quiet. He said that I shouldn't have to be back for awhile. I hope not. I can't deal with $400 in a month in car repairs.

Going to start my Christmas shopping next week while the girls are at the sitters. Supposed to meet up with my cousin-in-law on Monday for lunch and to drop off 2 containers full of baby girl clothes. Her sister is also over in the Middle East. Then on Tuesday I have Time Out for Moms. That one is from church. Going to drop the girls off at nursery, and then go have lunch in the big city.

Today though has been good. I miss Hubster, but today is the days that I know everything is going to be fine. I got every thing done that I needed to get done, and tomorrow, well tomorrow is another day. One day closer to Hubster getting home.

I love you. I miss you. Love, The Wife.

Got to talk to Hubster today

for about 15 minutes, but those were the best 15 minutes of the week. Just knowing that he is okay is what matters. You can usually tell a lot by the tone of his voice. He was telling me about falling off a stool, and I'm sure I wouldn't have heard about it unless somebody was yelling about it in the room. They were telling him to tell me. The girls were so happy to see their Daddy. It was 2 totally different little girls after they saw him. BG was all smiles. She even babbled to the other guys that were in the room with Daddy. They couldn't believe that she was only a year old.

Made it to church tonight. I'm thinking I might need to make a phone call to our pastor for a chat. At the very least, I'm going to shoot him off an email. As much as I have been struggling with going to church lately, who better to help me work my way through it than our pastor. I really enjoy going once I get there. One of the wives in our Sunday School class told me that I could sit by her because she was husband free tonight too. Before I knew it, I was surrounded by other women.

The boys are doing good. TB was playing his clarinet tonight while KB sang. We made them stay in the other room.

Took a couple of melatonin tonight. I'm bound and determined to try and get a good nights sleep. Have to pick up the van tomorrow from the mechanic. When I dropped it off, I asked him to please let me know if it was over $220 because that is how much I budgeted. He promised that it wouldn't. I'm hoping that that will end my car problems for a while.

Got an evite to my best friend's daughter's 8th birthday on Sunday. We are going to go to that. Then try and scoot out of there and make it to church Sunday night. Not sure that it will happen, but we will certainly try.

Going to bed. Hubster, you don't know how wonderful it was to hear your voice, and to actually see your face.

Today was one of THOSE days...

The only thing getting me through right now is knowing that each day that I get through, is one day closer. Got to chat with Hubster online for all of 3 or 4 minutes this morning. He was on his supper break. He got back online around the time that the kids were getting out of school. He was tired, so he didn't chat for very long. Still haven't actually heard his voice in nearly a week, but that is the way it is. He doesn't have phones, and to many people around to use Skype.

TB has a major 9 week test tomorrow in English. Praying for a good grade. He got his clarinet today. He thinks it is fun. It hurts my ears to hear him.

KB came home from football practice caked in mud. He is loving it though, and that is what matters. Still struggling in school, but he is starting to come around. I'm hoping that we will see a dramatic improvement next quarter. I know that the boy can do it. He is really very smart. This deployment though has thrown him for a loop.

KG and BG didn't do very much today except get into things. KG was telling R bye this morning. She kept telling him "be careful", and I want a kiss. BG got a hold of my phone today, and I hear her jabbering away. She kept saying Daddy over and over and over. I realize that she had actually called somebody. She called one of the ladies from church, and when I took the phone from her, she burst into tears. She kept crying Daddy over and over, and that got KG going. They cried for Daddy for a good 5 minutes. I couldn't do anything to fix it. All I could do was cry with them.

Got a letter in the mail today from one of the churches in a couple of towns over. Our family was put on their prayer list, so they were letting me know that they would be praying for us for the next 30 days straight. That was nice.

I know there will be better days. I'm praying that tomorrow is one of them. I have to go to the doctor tomorrow, and I get to drag along 2 little girls. Oh joy. If I didn't bring them along though, I'm afraid that my OB would have a fit. She already got onto me for not bringing them the last time. They said it shouldn't take long tomorrow. Hopefully we will be able to get the surgery date set.

Hubster...I love you.

Today just started off so bad....

I missed Hubster today. He tried to text me and IM me, and I missed it. I haven't actually spoken to him in 4 or 5 days. We haven't even hardly chatted online because he has been so busy. That just threw my whole day off. I get so disappointed when I miss him.

The girls started at their sitter today. I was supposed to have them there at 1130. We didn't even wake up till 9 because the girls slept horribly last night. I would pay good money to be able to sleep all night without interruptions. By the time I got them ready and out the door it was 11. I happened to look at the cabinet to see that KB needed a lunch for today, so I went and got him something from Sonic along with the girls a grilled cheese to take to the sitters. I get to the school to drop off KB's food, and my mom asks me to please go and get her something. I finally made it to the sitters at 1145. They didn't cry when I dropped them off. KG was telling me that "I going to play.". She went right in. It was nice to drop them both off, and them not to cry.

My nephew and I went to eat lunch at Freebirds. They have some amazingly good burritos. All I have to say is yummy. Then we bowled and played some video games. I'm pretty sure that if anybody was standing outside the Jurassic Park game would have thought there was some very loud kids playing that game. We had fun playing. Picked the girls up from the sitter. She told me that they didn't cry until they saw us pull up. Then they had to do that for me I guess. R wanted homemade chili cheese burgers for supper, so that is what I fixed. KB got his leg rolled over on during football practice, and he hurt it. It bruised it pretty bad, so we iced it down. He seems to be good now, but he certainly milked it for all that it was worth.

I got to talk to my brother today for the first time in 5 years. That was nice. We have stayed in contact with mail, but it was so nice to finally hear his voice. I miss him so much. I'm hoping that this is they year that he finally gets out. I'm not getting my hopes up though.

Hubster, I'm sorry that I missed you today. It just makes my day blah and ugh when I do that. I hope that your day was okay. I love you and miss you.

What is it about Sundays?

That make me so blah. I can't get motivated to do anything.

Hubster got online for a few minutes today. He was so tired that he kept dozing off at the laptop. He finally just gave up and went to bed around 800 PM his time. Told me that he would talk to me later because he thought he would just take a nap. Yeah, I didn't expect to hear from him again, and I was right. I hope that means he actually got a decent nights sleep. He said that they told him that he has a package. They just need to get it up to him. Whatever that means...

The kids are fine. The girls go to the sitter tomorrow. I hope they like it. I really do. I could use the me time. I'm looking forward to not having kids around.

Didn't make it to church today. I just couldn't bring myself to go. I hate being so blah, but Sundays are just so hard for me. I keep telling myself that at least we made it another week.

Trying not to let things bother me, and I'm not succeeding.

I've been doing good all day, but now I sit here at the computer. I feel lost. I don't know how to explain it. I just feel, Ho Hum. I'm tired, but my mind won't slow down enough for me to fall asleep. I just want to crawl under my covers and pull them up over my head.

My uncle tonight asked me what time we were going to church in the morning. I said 10 or 1130. He asked me if I was going to Sunday school. I told him that I doubted it. I don't feel comfortable there, and I don't think anybody really misses me any way. I don't think it really matters if I go or not. Nobody checks on me except on Wednesday night. I don't really need the check ups on Wednesday nights. It is nice for people to see how I'm doing. Don't get me wrong. It is the other days of the week thought that are hard. How in the world do you explain that? I know people have busy lives. I do understand that. I also understand that because I have 4 kids that people just don't want to have to deal with them. There was this big to do about giving me a break on Saturdays, and that people would take my kids for a couple of hours. Nope, it hasn't happened. I finally decided to hire somebody to give me a few hours of piece and quiet because I don't think that it is going to happen. I wish I had never heard about it. I know that part of that is satan just really hammering at me. I do try my best not to let it bother me, but I have a hard time even facing people in church because of it. Again, I see satan in this. I can tell my head that people are busy with their own lives and families, but my heart just has a hard time not hurting from it. I've gotten where I get to church at the last minute, and I leave as soon as I can. I just don't want to talk to anybody. Satan is trying to take me out of the fold.

I usually here from FD every single day a few times a day. I'm really feeling a wonderful friendship developing. We have known each other for 4 years, but I really feel that we are good friends now. Maybe it is because I know what it is like to have a lot of kids, but I feel like I can tell her any thing. She doesn't judge me.

I had BG's birthday party today. It was only 5 weeks late, but I invited another Seabee wife and her 6 kids to come over to have supper with us. I had made lasagna, and it turned out so yummy. I really enjoyed having them over. KB had his homecoming. He is a riot. It was chilly outside at the game. My mom and aunt took the girls home during the 3rd quarter because it was so chilly and damp. They ended up losing the game 24 to 8. I have no idea what was going through KB's mind, but he was doing something strange on the sideline while he wasn't playing. He had our stands rolling with laughter. It was some sort of dance/spasm. I wish I would have had my video camera. BG was so tired, that she didn't even want any cake. She just wanted to go to bed, so off to bed she went.

Hubster no matter what, I will always love you. I will always be proud of you. I miss you like you would not believe. I long to hold you in my arms.

I was busy,...

but where did the day go. I don't think I really accomplished very much. At least I don't think I did.

I've got my shopping list ready to go for tomorrow. Going to try and get the cake baked and decorated. Supper fixed for Saturday night, and going to try and get as much done as possible for BG's first birthday party. She is going to have a rainbow cake, and I'm going to make cupcake balls. I hope that they turn out good. I'm looking forward to the party. I hope it turns out okay.

My nephew that goes to Texas Tech made it in. He is going to stay until Tuesday. I'm so glad that he is here. KG warmed up to him after about 30 minutes. She isn't the biggest fan of men that she doesn't see.

I got a phone call from school today that TB was sick. I had to go and pick him up after lunch. I'm not sure how sick he really was though. BG is cutting 8 teeth. That poor baby. You can see them all popping through at the same time. She doesn't even really fuss about it. KB is looking forward to his football game. He is very excited. We have had to let the boys know that they are NOT staying home tomorrow. They both have tests, and it is just too hard for them to miss school.

Talked to Hubster for just a few minutes. He worked from 7 AM - 1 AM yesterday. He looks beat. He is trying to grow a mustache, and it is cracking me up. He already knows he has to shave it before he comes home.

Hubster, I love you, and we all miss you very much.

Today flew by....

but I'm feeling very unsettled today. I can't put my finger on it, but ever since I got off the internet with Hubster, something doesn't feel right. I can't explain it. I feel a great big cloud sitting over my house and a weight sitting on my shoulders. I don't know what to think, and I don't know how to shake it.

The girls and I put together for Daddy a "special" care package. I hope he likes it. It wasn't much, but it was fun to do. We finally made it to the post office with 5 minutes to spare before closing time, and 3 boxes are now on their way to the Middle East. I still have at least 1 more maybe 2 more to send, but they were things that could wait. Plus I'm needing to see if the sermons that I have requested to be sent to him have been. If not, then I will pick them up tomorrow night from church. That is the only reason that 1 box is still here. Otherwise the box will be sent off tomorrow.

Hubster seems so tired, and maybe that is why I'm unsettled. I didn't get to talk to him today. We IM'd for about 20 minutes, but I needed to go get the boys from school. He wanted to call and talk to Pastor. He said he needed some prayer, so I'm going to put that out there. He has really been reading his Bible, and he said that he has no one to talk to about it.

TB got his weekly progress report, and I'm not happy with him. I know he can do better. I just know it. He says that he is having problems seeing the words, so I'm guessing it is time for a trip to the eye doctor. The other 3 kids are doing great. They have been playing outside almost every afternoon, and today KG rode her horsey over a half a mile to KB's football practice. It was funny to watch her on that horse. BG is cutting at least 6 teeth. That poor baby has a nose running like a fountain, and she is chewing on EVERYTHING. Other wise, the kids are doing great.

I'm chugging right along. I have been busy, so that is making the days go by a little quicker. My nephew is coming in on Thursday, and the other one will be here on Friday. I love my nieces and nephews.

I want a Redo....

Today, well today, was that day. I would love to request a redo. Sundays are by far the hardest day of the week for me. This is the day of the week that we do/did things together as a family. Today is the day that I miss Hubster the most. I miss him every day, but today, Sunday, is the day that it hits home that he isn't here.

Yesterday was a good day though. I was hoping that that would mean that today was going to be good. I should have known better. I got every body up. I put breakfast in the oven to cook. I started the coffee maker. I made 8 cups. The boys were wanting a cup of coffee. I decided to take a shower while I was waiting for breakfast to cook. All I asked the boys to do was to make sure that I had some coffee left. I get out of the shower to KB and TB screaming at each other. Seems that TB decided that he was going to mess with KB by pouring fresh coffee into his cup every time KB stepped away. Needless to say it made KB mad. I got them apart and calmed down. Then I went to get me a cup of coffee. There was a slight problem, they had drank ALL of it. I was livid. I was looking forward to my coffee. I made another pot, and I threatened them with their lives NOT to touch my coffee. Got everybody fed and dressed, got the boys to take the girls to the car and get them buckled in. That is when I noticed, that I didn't have the garage door opener or even keys to the vehicle. The boys had misplaced both of them. By this point, I was in tears. Things had been going wrong all morning. I felt off. I was already missing Hubster alot, and I had it. I just sat down and cried. Hubster called me about 30 minutes after all of this happened, and that wasn't a pretty call. I hate feeling like I'm being picked on, and my emotions were already all over the place. He had to get off the phone to do something, and during that short time, my G1 broke. I don't know if it finally had it, or it was the fact that KG decided it needed to be cleaned....with water. I left it alone for a couple of hours to see if it would work. No go. I had to call Tmobile customer service. Only for them to go through the trouble shooting again, and to be told that I am not an authorized user. They won't send me a new phone. Blah, blah, blah. Thankfully I got a very nice guy who asked me if he could speak to Hubster. I laughed. I mean I really laughed. Sir, I would love to get to talk to my husband. They don't have phones where he is at, and frankly, I don't want him wasting a call on you. Mr. T though decided that he would see what he could do to help me out. He got me signed on as an authorized user. Thank you, Mr. T. Then he told me that now that I am an authorized user, he can send me a new phone. Thank you again, Mr. T. Plus since I have had problems with this one for over a month, and they have sent me a replacement phone that was even worse off than mine, he is going to express it to me. I should have my new G1 in about 3 days. Yay, go Mr. T. Then there were the little things that happened today. BG was running a low grade fever, so no church tonight for us. KB got bit by a dog. It didn't break the skin. Thankfully KB was wearing blue jeans because the dog grabbed ahold of KB's pants leg and wouldn't let go. One of the kids in the neighborhood, grabbed KB and jerked him away from the dog. The pound had to come and get the dog because it was a stray. The boys were upset that the pound might have to put the dog down. I dropped half our our lunch on the floor. Really, I thought I just needed a do over.

Hubster did send me the sweetest email today. It is one that I will truly treasure. Hubster isn't exactly the most romantic and expressive soul, but the short email really made me feel so much better. It was so sweet, and I loved it. He told me I would cry when I read it, and he was correct. I did cry.

We started talking tonight about the kids Christmas presents. I'm hoping to try and get started on them the next paycheck. Here is hoping that it will work out.

Hubster, I love you. Thank you for the wonderful email. I miss you so much.

Rain and Football

The rain started an hour before KB's football game. Lovely. We got to sit on the damp wood bleachers. KB's team lost 5 touchdowns to 2. The scoreboard wasn't working, so I have no idea what the actual score was. KB said that he loved playing in the rain. He did get to play a lot. He pretty much played the entire game. He is enjoying it more and more. I haven't told him yet that his cousin, whom he looks up to, is going to come and watch him play next weekend. He is going to be so excited.

TB is doing good. He is just getting a smart mouth, but that comes with his age more than anything.

The girls are doing great. They miss their Daddy, and any time my cell phone rings they both come running thinking it is Daddy. I'm glad that they still remember him. It helps that they are able to see him online. I don't want them to be scared of him when he returns home.

Today flew by. I can't believe how fast today went. I'm not going to complain. I wish all of my days were like that. I actually was productive this evening. I made a menu for the next 1.5 to 2 weeks. I then went through my cupboard to see exactly what I will need to buy in order to fix those meals. I'm hoping that will help me stay motivated in cooking at home. It should save me a ton of money.

I didn't get to talk to Hubster today. I wasn't around my computer until this evening. He was texting me on my cell phone. That didn't even last very long because I was running out the door to KB's football game. I'm not going to text and drive. He said there were a lot of people around any way, so he probably wouldn't have been able to call. Oh well, I will get to talk to him soon.

I worried him though, and I certainly didn't mean to. I had a bad allergic reaction on Thursday to a new medicine. I was telling him about it, and that the flyer said to call the FDA. I'm still having a few side effects from the medicine, but I haven't taken it since Thursday morning. I am feeling better as each hour passes, but he wanted me to go to the ER. I had to call the pharmacist just to reassure him that everything was fine. The only reason I told him about it was because every thing was fine. I didn't think he would flip out about it. I wouldn't have mentioned it if I would have known that. He even called my mom. At least I know that he cares. It did kind of give me a warm and fuzzy feeling.

I need to get to bed. I'm not sleeping well at all, and I keep forgetting to take my medicine that helps me sleep until late late. I don't want to take it that late, so I have insomnia. The 3 to 5 hours of restless sleep is going to end up catching up with me. I promise though not to drive if I feel even the slightest bit sleepy.

This week actually went pretty fast....

I don't get to say that very often. I'm glad that it did because last week crept by.

TB finally went back to school today after missing 2 days. The 24 hour fever rule really screwed us up yesterday. If it wasn't for the fact that the flu is running rampant through the school, I might have considered sending him. I just didn't think that was fair to the other kids, plus his immune system is already compromised.

The other kids are still doing good. They miss their daddy very much just like I do. KG last night was singing happy birthday to the Willow Tree Angels. I was laughing at her. It was really funny. She was even dancing while she was doing it. I should have taken a video of it. Today was such a beautiful day outside, that I took the girls outside and let them play in the front yard for nearly 2 hours. KG was riding her horsey down the driveway. Somebody would be standing at the end to make sure that she didn't get into the road. It was so funny. I took a video of it, and I emailed it to Hubster. I hope he is able to see it. She was having a ball. BG was loving the grass. She would just sit and play in it. Then she would try to make a break for the road. We have a ton of kids on our street so, people thankfully drive very slow. There are always kids riding bikes and running around. I really love our neighborhood. People actually *gasp* stand outside and talk to each other. I know that is a concept that is hard to understand these days.

I had a reaction to the medicine that my OB put me on. I'm not sure if it was the Cipro or the blood pressure medicine. I was reading the information sheet that Walgreen's sends out with the medication, and it said that if you have a reaction to bactrim not to take it. I passed out when I took bactrim. I passed out in the bath tub when I was at home by myself with just the boys. I didn't realize that the blood pressure medicine is a sulfonamides. We didn't figure out I was allergic to those until I had passed out. Maybe I should have read the sheet first. I didn't even think about it until I got so sick yesterday. I guess I now know what the problem was. I didn't take it today, and I have felt better and better as the day has worn on. Thankfully because yesterday, I thought I was going to pass out or die. It was a horrible feeling, and I couldn't figure out what was wrong. I guess I need to add allergic to sulfonamides to the list.

Got to talk to Hubster today for a little bit. He was so tired. He is working 14 hour days right now.

Tomorrow KB has a football game. I'm just wondering how much he is going to get to play. He missed practice on Tuesday thanks to Grandma. Somebody had asked him and TB to come over to their house to play and to eat supper. She told them not a problem without thinking about the fact that KB was to have practice at 6. The kids are new to the school and new to the area. I didn't really want to go and make them come home after supper had been prepared for them. I just didn't feel that was right. I did have to tell Mom that she needs to remember that he has practice on Mondays, Tuesdays, and Thursdays. Yesterdays practice was canceled due to the weather. We had some pretty big storms role through. I love all of that. I'm weird, and I know it.

We are going to have a wonderful, fantastic, great weekend. I am bound and determined to have one. Plus we are going to go and get some things to make a very "special" care package for Hubster. I love that man. I don't think you can tell somebody that you love them enough.