The Uneasiness

I hate the uneasy feeling that has plagued me through out the day. It doesn't help that I haven't heard from Hubster at all today. Not one single peep from that end. Praying for the uneasy feeling to go away and for Hubster's safety.

Got to love those Deployment Gremlins...

This is what I came home to after my doctor's appointment that didn't happen. This was caused from the toilet mishap last night. Isn't it just lovely? I haven't taken a picture yet, but the hole is about 3 times bigger than that now. We got home from church, and another section had fallen down. Our deductible is $500. Just something else that I need. That doesn't even touch what the price is going to be for the plumber.

Other than the day seeming to drag, it was an okay day. I got to chat with Hubster online. Then tonight is church tonight, and boy was it good. It was a wonderful way to start off the Bible Conference this year. I'm looking forward to tomorrow nights preachers. My favorite night will be Friday though. My two favorite preachers are going to be preaching. I wish I had somebody to go with me. I can think of no way better to spend New Year's Eve than in church. It was refreshing tonight. I'm ready to start the New Year off with a bang. I'm going to start forcing myself to get up for Sunday school and maybe even the early service on Sundays.

All of the kids are doing great. BG was hollering at the hole in the ceiling. It was really funny. She kept pointing at it and jabbering. I will make sure that I get video of it tomorrow for Hubster. I'm ready for school to start back. I'm sure the boys are too. Ready for the school year to be over for more than one reason.

UGH!

That is all I have to say. Well, no I really do have more to say than that. I guess the deployment gremlins that have stayed away for the past 2 months decided to rear it's ugly head. Those stupid, stupid gremlins.

Day started off pretty good. I met a couple of other Seabee wives for a movie and lunch. We went and saw Sherlock Holmes. While I was in the movies, Hubster texted me. I didn't get to chat with him but for a few minutes. He told me he would try and get back online after the movie was over. I never heard from him again. I guess he either couldn't get through, or he fell asleep. I don't know what happened, but I certainly don't like it when I don't get a chance to talk to him. It just puts a pall over my day. One of the wives and I were going to go and do something after the movie, but KB's friend's mom called. She wanted to know when I was going to come and get him. It had started to snow. Yes, we have had snow 2 times in 5 days. We aren't supposed to get snow 2 times in 5 days. That is unheard of. I guess it is all that global warming.

Got home with all of the kids, and I was sitting upstairs when TB started hollering my name. Seems that the toilet was overflowing, and we had about an inch of water in the upstairs bathroom. I ran to Lowe's to buy a shop vac to get the water up, and the water was pouring through the light fixture downstairs along with 2 other little spots on the ceiling. The toilet upstairs isn't working, and I'm not sure if one of the girls didn't happen to put something in the toilet. I have no idea. Going to go and get a better plunger tomorrow, and hope that it will cure the problem .

Internet has not been working properly since Sunday. I called and we got it fixed. Glad that it is fixed. I prefer to play on the internet in my bed.

It's Monday, and I'm done...

I'm sitting here waiting on KB's friend to pick him up. They should be here in the next few minutes, and I thought I might actually sit here and play catch up.

MY brother, his wife, and my niece came over Saturday afternoon for Christmas. They brought over the boys computers. They were both so excited to have them. I can't say that I blame them. He got the girls their own little "laptops". They both love them which means they all leave my laptop alone. We didn't do much of any thing at all over the weekend.

We watched football all day yesterday. All the teams that we wanted to win won. Yesterday though was one of "those" days. I don't know how else to explain it. It is one of those days during a deployment when your emotions run all over the board. First off, I woke up late because KG did not sleep well at all. That caused me to miss not only church yesterday morning, but also a chance to chat online. That is NEVER a good way to start the day. I woke up feeling off. My head was hurting, and it felt like I had been on a bender. Except for the fact that I hadn't. I don't hardly ever drink any more. Then it just seemed to never get better. I did get a chance to chat with Hubster online. I'm grateful for that. I really am. It just isn't the same. I did get to take a short nap in the afternoon. I was hoping that would improve my mood or at least lift the cloud of doom surrounding me. I got up and watched the Sunday night football game. While it was on, I was chatting online with 2 different Seabee wives. I really wish both of them lived closer to me. SD is like me, a SAHM. We were discussing the wide range of emotions that we were both experiencing today. We both were saying how we wish we worked outside the home because it seems that the days drag. We always wish for the thing that we can't have I guess. SD and I were talking about how we would like a few days of not having to worry about anybody else but ourselves. The stress of having to constantly be "on" is doing us in. She was cracking me up with her I want to be the crap out of somebody and then hug them. Yes, there are days that I feel that way. I just want to shut myself off and shut down. I want just a few days to myself. I don't want to have to worry about anybody.

FD and I decided that we were some sort of magnets this deployment for the disturbed. Both of us have had to deal with somebody telling us that a family member is bipolar. Oye. She said that she wished that she hadn't even opened up that can of worms with the other spouse. It was really funny because I was picturing her picking up all these worms and trying to get them back into their little can. All the while, talking to the worms telling them not to come back out.

Maybe it is me that is disturbed. LOL. All I really know at this point is, that one, I'm really ready for this to be over. Two, that I miss Hubster terribly. Three, that I have made some wonderful new friends, and four, I feel at times like I'm done. Not done with Hubster, but done with this deployment. I want to take my ball home. I don't want to play anymore. I want to tell the Navy that we quit. Don't think they would appreciate that, but it doesn't hurt to fantasize about telling them to shove it where the sun don't shine. Oh well, I will pull myself up by my bootstraps. Ha, ha, ha...I don't wear boots. I will put my big girl panties on. I will plaster a smile on my face, and I will fake it till I make it. Because just because I say I'm done, doesn't mean that I'm really done. I am SuperMom. I can do this. I will do this, and I will be waiting at home for Hubster because dad gum it, I love that man to distraction!

Christmas Day...

I received those beautiful flowers yesterday from Hubster for Christmas. They smell amazing. I love them. They have all of my favorite flowers in them. I can't say how much I love them.

The boys woke me at 4 AM this morning to let me know that Santa had arrived. I told them to go back to bed. Then they proceeded to tell me exactly what they had gotten. I told them not to mess with their Santa gifts until 8 AM because I was NOT getting up. During that time, they cleaned their bedroom, the playroom, and the bathroom. That earned TB me not taking away his new DSi that Santa left. They waited until 8, and then I got up with them. I have to run to Lowe's tomorrow to pick up 2 nuts for the girls Santa gifts, so that they can ride them.

Got to speak with Hubster today on the phone, and then chatted with him 2 times. I cried when the phone number popped up on my phone. I miss him so terribly much. I can't wait to see him, and to hold him again.

Merry Christmas!!!!

Boy what a day. First off, yesterday it was in the 70s here. Today we have 3 inches of snow on the ground. For the first time that I can ever remember, we will have a white Christmas. It is extremely pretty and maybe just maybe, I will take a picture with my new pink camera from the kids and post it. I love that it is pink. Hubster isn't going to want to play with my pink camera. The kids all loved their presents. The girls were overwhelmed with their gifts. I could literally put a few gifts up and regift them for their birthdays. They would never know the difference. The boys were given Ipods from their Daddy and I. I was mean though, and I wrapped up the accessories in 2 different boxes. Then I wrapped their Ipods up and put them in another present that had pjs and underwear. They couldn't figure out where their Ipod Nanos were. It was great. They both loved them. I'm glad that they liked their gifts. It seems like all of the kids liked their gifts. We didn't get to make it to church tonight because the roads were icy and nasty. I wasn't going to. I did dress the kids in their church clothes, and I think I will dress them up again on Sunday for church.

Santa though isn't doing so hot. We went to put together the girl's ride on police cars. Both of them are missing an important nut that holds the handlebars on. That means they won't be under the tree in the morning. Thankfully they are little, and I had picked them up something that they can have in the morning until I can get the necessary bolts. Then KB's electric razor scooter needed 2 tools that we don't have. He will get his gift, but he won't be able to ride it. He wouldn't have been able to ride it first thing any way. I didn't even want to look at TB's DSi.

I got so mad at my oldest tonight, that if my head could have spun around like a top it would have. I am now the proud owner of his Ipod, a Wii, and a DSi come tomorrow morning until the child can learn to behave. UGH, his daddy would have come unglued on him. I did tell him that he can EARN each item back. All he has to do is behave himself, do what he is told, and to be nice to his siblings.

He did though do something today that amazed me. He astounds me at times with what he is able to do. His PSP was broke. The reader was not working. Hubster had a PSP that had been dropped, so the screen was broken. For some reason, we had held onto Hubster's busted PSP. Today, TB decided that he was going to take the two broke PSPs and make one that would work. He watched a video ONE time on Youtube on how to switch out the screens, and not 20 minutes later he had a working PSP. I was shocked and proud of him. He struggles so much in school, and he is always so down on himself. The boy though is very mechanical. There is no way I could do what he did.

I didn't get to talk to Hubster today on the phone, but he was able to IM two times. He got online around 10 PM my time. He had just finished running a 5K. I'm very proud of him. I told him that I want to start running, so maybe when he gets home we can run together.

I'm going to go to bed now. I'm sure that my children will wake me up early to see what Santa has brought them. I hope they love it as much as I love them.

Wednesday...

Boy it feels weird not to go to church on a Wednesday night. We have Christmas Eve Candlelight Service tomorrow, so tonight was canceled. I've got the kids clothes all ready to go. They should all look good. They are ready to open up their gifts, but they just have to wait. I haven't even wrapped any yet. I'm way, way behind. I am done buying theirs though. The only person I like is my dad, and he is by far the hardest person in the world to buy for. I have no idea what to give him ever. I can't wait to see the kids faces when they open up their gifts. They are going to love everything. I just know it. KB was already trying to get into some of her gifts in my closet.

Tomorrow looks like it is going to be a busy, busy day. Have to run to Sam's to get the stuff for supper. Going to the 5:00 PM service at church. Then home to eat and open gifts. Somewhere in all of that time, I'm going to have to wrap gifts.

I really miss Hubster during this time of year. This is his favorite season. I see something, and I want to tell him about it. That is when I realize that I can't just pick up the phone or take him to see it. I'm going to keep faking it till I make it. The holiday season is just about over, and I'm ready for it to be done.

It's another Manic Monday...

One of the other wives popped over for a few hours today to chat. While she was here, my mom ran some errands since I'm still not allowed to drive or lift the girls. She figured what better time to go. It was such a nice visit. I'm glad that she came over.

Going to meet up with some of the other wives for lunch, pedi , and a movie next Tuesday. Sounds like lots of fun. I'm just going to leave the boys at home and drop the girls off at the sitter. I have a hair appointment on the 5th for color and a cut. One of the ladies at church is going to do it for me. She seems to do a really good job.

Got to chat online with Hubster for a bit today. I sure do miss him. I can't wait to see him. He sent us Christmas cards and letters. I thought that was so sweet of him. Each of the kids got their own card with their own little note and some dinars in them. Of course the girls couldn't read their notes, but I read them to them. He wrote a poem in mine plus I got a separate letter from him. It was Christmas at our house. I loved them. It was such a sweet gesture. I never knew that my husband was such a poet.

The boys had their Christmas program at church yesterday. It was short and sweet. Just about all I could stand before the pain really kicked in. Thankfully I had some wonderful pain meds. Had to take some today because I thought it would be a good idea to vacuum. Nope, wasn't the brightest idea that I have had.

It is only 915 in the evening, and I'm already in bed for the night. Fixing to fall asleep. The meds make me very tired. The kids are all in their beds asleep, so I'm going to go to bed myself.

Hubster Wanted to Know Why...

I haven't blogged in a while. I could have sworn that I wrote a post on Friday or Saturday, but I don't see it. I must have dreamed it then.

I had my surgery on Thursday. For some reason, I had convinced myself that this was going to be nice and easy. That I would be back up and running the next day. Boy was I ever wrong. I don't know why I was thinking that this was going to be so easy. I felt better after giving birth than I do now. It doesn't help that I'm wiped out. It seems all I have done since Thursday is sleep. The pain meds knock me for a loop, but if I don't take them, I can't function because of how I hurt. My mom was laughing at me because as she said, they moved around your insides, what were you expecting. I don't know, but I wasn't expecting this. Next time I get the bright idea to have surgery, I'm not going to do it during a time where there is so much going on. I missed our Seabee Christmas party. That bummed me out. I wanted to go so bad. It sounds like every body had a fantastic time. I have now missed the last two major things that the FRG has done. I'm really not feeling a part of it. It seems that things keep popping up that I have no control over.

Top it off, I've lost my deployment bracelet that Hubster made for me. The last time that I had it was on Thursday before they wheeled me back to pre-op. I put it in my wallet, but it isn't there now. Why does that feel like a bad omen to me? I really need to find it. I feel lost without it.

Yesterday was Hubster and mine's 11th anniversary. I can't believe that it has been 11 years since we got married. It has been a wonderful 11 years. I wouldn't trade them for the world. I love the man more today than I did 11 years ago when I got married. I am truly blessed to have him in my life. What a long way we have come from where we started out.

I got our second gift card from Sears on the 17th. It was for another $100. Hubster told the boys to use it on me. That was sweet of him, so Grandpa is fixing to take the boys to Sears. Who knows what I'm going to end up with.

Tomorrow is the Day...

I have my surgery, and there will hopefully not be any more kids. I'm nervous about doing this without Hubster here, but I know he will be close by in thoughts and prayer. TB told me today that I didn't have to have surgery. That there was something that they could put in there that was birth control. I didn't know rather to laugh or die of embarrassment. I decided to laugh, and told him it was none of his business. That he needed to drop it. I'm really looking forward to not worrying about having another kid.

The only thing really going on around here is having to deal with the hospital. They seem to have my insurance messed up. I went for my preop on Tuesday only to be told that I owe $1000, and that they take a payment of 60%. Wait! What! I have Tricare Prime. I shouldn't owe any where near that amount. They told me that it was my deductible. Uh, no, first off the deductible for Tricare is at the most $300. I don't have $600 right at this moment to pay you, so they went ahead did all of the preop blood work and tests that they needed. I then went downstairs to the financial counselor. She told me that the $1000 was my deductible, and that the hospital is not part of Tricare's network any longer. That since it was the holidays, that I could pay $250 today. Then they would bill me for the rest, and that we could make payment arrangements. She even advised me that I would owe additional after the $1000. Oye, I was sick but I went ahead and paid my $250. I need to have the surgery. A kid would cost me more than that, and they were willing to work with me. When I got home, I got online to Tricare and sent an inquiry about what my total bill would be. I also picked up the phone and called them. They were so nice up there. They told me that I was covered at 100%, and that the hospital should have never charged me a dime. That even though the hospital is no longer in network, that my OB only does surgeries at that hospital. They had already negotiated a fee with the hospital. She told me to get my money back. I've been trying for two days now to get the hospital to talk to me. Tricare was even nice enough today to send me the approval information stating that it was 100% covered. I'm hoping that I get my money back real soon.

Still haven't finished up my Christmas shopping. I will hopefully be done with that in the next couple of days.

This is the last week of school for the semester. We have made it 18 weeks. I'm hoping that the next 20 flies by just as fast.

La Te Da

I actually got to speak to Hubster on the phone today. I think it had been close to 2.5 weeks, since I had gotten to speak to him on the phone. He even had a chance to call our pastor. Our pastor is going to have a chat with the boys. They don't seem to be listening all that well to me.

Hubster passed his test for this SCWS pin, so that means he will appear before the board soon which is the second and final step to get the SCWS pin. He has to pass it in order to even test for advancement in February.

Tomorrow is pre-op day for me. I don't know what all that entails. It sounds like loads of fun though. NOT! I do have to see my doctor also for my pre-op appointment with her. I hope that every thing goes okay. This is making me nervous. I'm dreading Hubster not being here with me, but I know that every thing will be fine.

KG sneezed today, and I hear BG yell across the room, "Bless you." It was so funny. I laughed and laughed. BG also had her cup tucked underneath her arm. She couldn't reach it, and she was going around and around in circles like a puppy dog chasing their tail. I was cracking up at her. I wish I had recorded it. It was really funny. The boys are doing good. It looks like TB has passed all of his classes this quarter. We will know soon. This is the end of the 9 weeks for them. That means only 18 more weeks of school. I should start a countdown of some sort even though I don't know why I would be looking forward to the boys being out of school.

Another Week Has Started...

I hope this week flies by just as fast as last week did. I hope that this week doesn't give me any surprises. I don't need surprises.

We made it to church this morning. My parents went with me, but they were wanting to hear the special guest speaker that I have been raving about for the last year. I was really wanting them to go to the service tonight because that was when he was doing his concert. He is one of the few performers who sound better in person than on their record. We came home for a few hours. We straightened up the house. Then I had to have the boys back up at church at 430 for choir practice. I went ahead and went in to find a seat at 5. That is when they opened the church doors. I was sitting there trying to get the nerve up to go and talk to our pastor. I'm in need of some help, and I really hate asking for help. I just can't stand it. With my surgery scheduled for Thursday, I'm having problems finding somebody to watch the girls and take me to the hospital even. I was dropping the girls off in nursery when one of the ladies from our Sunday school class asked me how things were going. I just broke down in tears. I'm feeling very over whelmed right now. I told her what was going on. She has offered to come and take me to the hospital, to stay with me, and then to bring me home. They told me at church not to worry about the kids. They would find somebody to watch them. I just have such a hard time asking for help. I know that I can't do every thing by myself, but I just don't like to put people out. I have to get over that. I go in Tuesday for my preop appointment at the hospital, and then I have a doctor's appointment.

KB got punched in the eye by our pastor's kid. They were telling me about it when I went to get KB. Seems that the kids thought it would be funny to steal his shoes. I'm sure I'm not getting the whole story, but according to KB, he was innocent in all of this. The youth pastor told me that there was some pushing going on. I do know that the pastor's kid probably got in lots of trouble. My thoughts about it was that KB has an older brother, so this wasn't the first time, and it won't be the last time that something like that happens.

I mailed out 3 packages to Hubster on Monday. He got one of them today. I was laughing because he got the decorations for his little tree except the hangers that hang them up are in one of the other boxes. I find that ironic and amusing. I don't know how funny he thinks it is.

We are less than a week away from Hubster's and our 11th anniversary. I can't believe that we have been married nearly 11 years. I hope he knows just exactly how much I love him and miss him.

Praying for a very fast week and one filled with many blessings for me, my family, and my friends.

Oh Boy...

I hate hearing the news that I got today. It didn't surprise me, but I certainly didn't want to hear it. Then I really didn't have any body to talk to about it. I wasn't sure who knew and who didn't know. It isn't like it should be a big surprise. Somebody has to get equipment moved and housing built for all of the extra bodies.

KG is sitting on my back giving me a "massage". She is actually doing a pretty good job. It is really funny. I was going to take the kids to see Christmas lights tonight, but BG fell asleep before we could leave. We didn't end up going. Instead I stayed home and fixed soup and grilled cheeses for the kids.

Went on base to the commissary today to get a few groceries. My goodness we ended up spending $125 in there before we left. Guess I won't have to buy groceries for a while though.

My brother called me today to find out if it was okay if he gave the boys computers for Christmas that he had one of his junior high kids fix. That means that each boy will have their very own computer. It will be internet ready, and they will have every thing on them that they would need to do school work. I'm not going to turn those down. The boys are going to be so excited. With every thing they have gotten, they are going to be spoiled rotten. I got an email from Sears saying that I will be getting another gift card on the 15th.

My sister-in-law has started looking at houses in our neighborhood. Right now she lives halfway across the country from us, but she is wanting to move to our state. She actually looked online at 2 houses that are on the same street as ours. We shall see if she is serious or not.

Today has had its ups and downs. Tomorrow is a new day. I'm praying that it will be a great day filled with God's blessings.

Friday!!!!!

Another week is down! Another week is down!

I took SIL to the airport today for her flight home. When she was getting ready to go through security she gave me some money and told me that she was sorry that she didn't get a chance to buy me a Christmas present. It was nice, and I'm going to use my money for a massage. I can't wait. She was telling me that her and her boyfriend have been talking about moving to our state. I'm thinking that would actually be pretty nice. The kids just adore her, and she adores them.

I was thinking today when I returned home how quiet it was here without another adult to talk to. I missed the adult conversation.

BG is becoming a little hellion. I'm going to have to nip that in the bud and quickly. She has become a brat, and I will not stand for that. TB got a nice lecture today. I made him cry. I hope he understands just how disappointed I was in him and his brother. They seem to think that the world should revolve around them, and I'm tired of it. They want, want, and want some more. Nothing I ever do is good enough for them. They always think they need more. Well, that stops today. I'm not playing that game any more.

I went and got 2 more presents for BG today from Kohl's. I love Kohl's power hours plus the extra 15% off coupon. It always makes their toys cheaper than Walmart. I figure that people don't even think about that.

I didn't hear from Hubster today. I guess it is back to deployment reality for us. I hate this. I'm ready for him to be home. Hubster, I love you very much. I can't wait to see you.

I Can't Believe It is Thursday...

This week has flown by. I can't believe that tomorrow is Friday. I'm not complaining though. SIL finally got out of the hospital today. The girls and I picked her up this afternoon. She sounds 100 times better, and I'm glad that she is feeling better. She goes home tomorrow. The kids are going to miss her even though they didn't get to see too much of her. I'm really glad that she got to come and visit. I just wish she hadn't gotten sick.

I don't know what happened to me yesterday. I felt like I had been ran over by a truck though. I was throwing up, had aches and chills, and felt plain horrible. I really was just wanting to die. I hated being touched because it would send pain all over my body.

Hubster's new location doesn't allow him the same internet access that he was having. That means I don't get to see him on Skype any more. I would love to see his face. I really miss seeing him.

Put Another Day Down as Done...

Another day has bitten the dust. I had to take MIL to the airport this morning for her flight. We left the house at 645. Got her off. Got to chat online with Hubster for a few minutes, and then he called. It is always so nice to hear his voice. I miss seeing him though. My mom called me to tell me that the boys tv had fallen on KB this morning, and that he was having a hard time walking. His leg was bruised and a little swollen. I picked him up from school, and he was complaining about how bad it was hurting. I know how dramatic the child can be. I really didn't think any thing was wrong but that he had a bruise, and he was milking this for all that it was worth. He has a tendency to do that especially with his Daddy gone. I called the doctor's office hoping that they would tell me to just come in for them to look at it. They told me to take him to the ER. I really thought about just waiting it out until tomorrow, but I decided to go ahead and take him. Thankfully they got him in and out quickly. They were so nice in there. It was the second time in two days that I have been up the ER. He had his xrays, and the lady that was doing it was so funny. She was asking him if he had a girlfriend because he was going to have a gorgeous bruise. He only had a bruise, and he was feeling better this evening.

SIL is still in the hospital. We went to visit her this afternoon. She looked better, but she still doesn't sound all that great. They think she might be out Friday. I told her we would be back tomorrow to see her before we went to church. I'm not feeling all that great, but I think it has more to do with allergies than any thing else.

I can't believe tomorrow is Wednesday already. YEA! Hope the week continues to fly by as well as the month.

Happy Monday!

Just lets me know that we are at the beginning of a new week. It means another week has passed. I'm ready for this to be done.

MIL and SIL made it in on Thursday. SIL wasn't feeling well, so we stopped and got her some medicine. She went with us on Friday while we went and did a little Christmas shopping for the kids. MIL and I went to Walmart at midnight Saturday to get the Wii with the $50 gift card. We got the only one that they had. On Saturday, SIL was sick. She was running a fever, coughing, and throwing up. She stayed home while we went and did some more running around. Didn't really get very much except for a Christmas tree. We came home and my mom, MIL, and the kids put it up. I really didn't want any thing to do with it. Sunday we made it to the evening service only at church. I just didn't have the gumption to make it to Sunday morning service. Just having a rough time of it right now. Got home, and SIL asked me to take her to the ER about 10 PM. I took her while MIL stayed with the kids. She was admitted for pneumonia. No idea when she will be getting out of the hospital. MIL is scheduled to go home tomorrow. I will be making sure SIL is taken care of while MIL is home. I'm tired because I got a whopping 3 hours of sleep. I have to get up at 6 AM to take MIL to the airport in the morning. I'm ready for things to get back to normal. The kids though have enjoyed MaMaw being here. They wish that Aunt C was feeling better. She never gets sick. Aunt C was very upset with how bad that she was feeling. I'm hoping that she gets out of the hospital sooner rather than later.

I'm ready for 2009 to be over. I'm looking forward to 2010 and having Hubster home. Not much longer hopefully. Not much longer.

They Have Arrived...

The inlaws that is. It was great. I went and picked up MIL from the airport at 1115, and then we stopped and got some lunch. I had to take KG to the doctor. She kept complaining that her ear was hurting. She has an ear infection. Then we went to get the boys from school. When KB saw his grandma, he dropped his bag and ran to her. TB is way to cool to show emotion now, but I saw him smile when he saw her. After we got everybody loaded up in the car, we went to the airport for part 2 of the surprise. We told the boys that Grandma was expecting a package. When we saw Aunt C, KB was so happy. He said that he loved his surprises. The girls have really warmed up to them both. I think this is going to be a really nice weekend.

Grandma fixed meatballs and spaghetti per TB's request that Grandma cook. She got a kick out of that. The woman can flat out cook. It was so good.

Talked to Hubster today on the phone for a bit. I'm really worried about him. I hate the extra worry, but I'm still very unsettled. I feel like I'm waiting for another shoe to drop. I wish he could talk to me, but he can't. He can't tell me what is going on, but I can tell that something is wrong. I hate this. Now, on top of worrying about his safety, I have to worry about him. It would be so much easier if I didn't love the man to distraction. :)

One More Day...

Until the in laws get here. I'm excited about this. The boys know they have a surprise tomorrow, but no idea what the surprise is. They also know that they are going to be picked up early from school. This should be fun.

Hubster sent me my anniversary present today. I love it. I'm going to have to get it framed. The note that he sent with it was so sweet. I really do love that man. Our anniversary isn't until the 19th either. He did a good job.

KG got in trouble today, and I told her that she needed to go to bed. She went and got the kitten and they fell asleep together. It was so cute. TB is passing every thing this quarter so far. I'm proud of him.

Haven't gotten to talk to Hubster in a while. I missed his phone call today. I have gotten so used to him not calling, that I don't take it with me. It makes me sad when I miss his phone calls. I hope he gets to feeling better from his root canal. He said that his mouth was hurting today, and he got sick from something he ate.

My headlight went out in the van. That is going to cost around $30 to replace. Just what I didn't need another bill. UGH! At least that one isn't a freaking arm and a freaking leg.

Tuesday Bluesday

Today was Seabee Wife Day out. I took the girl's to the sitters for the day, and then I went to do some Christmas shopping. I was having the hardest time buying any thing. I would think about buying this or that for the kids, and then I would think I need to talk to Hubster about it. Then realize that Hubster isn't here to talk to about it. I did finally end up with getting 2 of the boys big presents out of the way. They both got Ipod Nano's with all the little fixings to go with it. TB got a blue one, and KB got a purple one. Now, I just need to get them their Santa gifts. I also got the girls each a doll from Kohl's. I'm going to wait until the inlaws get here to do some more shopping.

I was at lunch today, and I was trying my best not to cry. It was just over whelming. I'm ready for this deployment to be over. I feel alone, and I have been so unsettled lately. I don't know what to make of it. I think it all stems back to the incident email. Ever since then, I just haven't been able to sleep. I just keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm thankful for each day that is another day down without anything happening.