I really didn't expect it to. I'm turning to the one thing that I shouldn't....FOOD. I don't even want to do my weigh in on Monday because I know it isn't going to be pretty. I'm making terrible food choices, and I'm eating to much. This is really not good. I need to purge the house of all sweets and things not good for you...PRONTO. I'm debating about rather or not to do WW in person just so I have some accountability. I know exactly what I'm doing wrong, but I continue to sabotage myself, and I don't know why.
I was wanting to have the hysterectomy, but now I'm getting worried about it. I have no idea how I'm going to manage it. From every thing I've seen, I can expect to be in the hospital from 1 to 5 days. Oh boy, what am I going to do with the girls. Then I have a 2 to 3 week recovery period where I can't do much of anything. I could try and make it until school is out, but I'm not sure if I can or not. The pain is getting to be intolerable. I have to go Monday to pick up my contrast for the ct Scan on Wednesday morning. I was supposed to do it today, but Hubster is on call at work. He ran off with my one and only set of van keys, and I'm really not happy with him at the moment. I know it was an accident, but there is a reason why we have a place to hang keys by the door. It is not to keep them in your pocket.
So, right now I'm mad. I'm disgusted with myself. I'm tired. I'm aching in my sides. I'm just all around not very happy with my lot in life. Yes, I know there are worse things going on in the world right now, and frankly, I don't really care. This is going on in my life at this moment. I'm still trying to wrap my brain around this surgery coming up, and I'm not doing a very good job of it.
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