I'm Wiped Out

BG hasn't slept very well the last two days. That means I haven't slept in the last two days. She went to bed tonight at 830, and I'm fixing to head that way myself. KG has been asleep since before 7. Oh, I hope she doesn't wake up. Please, don't wake up.

BG is still not feeling all that well. The doctor prescribed her an antibiotic for an viral infection. There is something going on with her besides the thrush. The thrush is looking a little better. She actually finally ate today for me. She gobbled down some chicken noodle soup both at lunch and at supper. She ate some ice. She drank a glass of tea. I'm hoping that she is on the mend. I don't like it when she is sick.

KG has been a toot the last few days. Today she threw the cat in the bathtub while I was taking a bath. The kitten was trying to use me as a climbing toy to get out. Then she sprayed BG with windex. I swear I'm going to pull my hair out. She has just been a royal toot lately. Whatever it is that has over taken her little body needs to get out. I want my sweet little girl back.

KB got in trouble at school, so that means he got in trouble at home. He was told that he had best go and apologize to his teacher tomorrow for arguing with her. Seems that he had gotten in trouble yesterday too, and I didn't know about it. He had best be glad that Hubster was not home. I have no idea what has happened to that child.

TB has been working hard all week to get things done, but he was arguing with grandma at school today too. What is up with these boys? I'm beginning to feel like a failure. Where have I gone wrong?

Today for me has been blah. I don't know how to really describe it. It has just been a blah day. I think part of it is because I'm tired. This not getting a full nights sleep because I'm still getting up with the girls is starting to get to me. I would pay good money to get a full nights sleep uninterrupted. I have really missed Bill today, and I'm starting to worry about money. I should really get a job, but I'm wanting to go back to school. I will figure it out. I always do.

Hubster, I love you.

I'm beginning to really love my Mondays...

Those are my kid free 5 hour days. I went to drop off the girls at Mrs. H's house, and KG was running up to the door. She was telling me that she was going to play and to have fun. BG though was a different story. She woke up this morning perfectly fine. She touched the cat, and her nose started running. Her eyes got red and puffy. I gave her some benadryl, and off in the car we went. She fell asleep on the short drive. She was crying when I passed her off to Mrs. H. I told Mrs. H. to just lay her down that she should go to sleep. I had told her about the benadryl and the cat.

After dropping off the girls, I went to meet Angie at Mimi's cafe. The food was wonderful. Nothing like having an omelet with monterrey jack cheese, avocado, and bacon. It was divine. After we were done eating, we went to Garden Ridge and Kohls. Time flew by, but I had so much fun.

I went and picked the girls up. BG was fussy, but I didn't think anything about it when I got her. She usually clings to me when I pick her up. We got home, and she was acting like she was hungry. I got her something to eat, and she started screaming. She was telling me ouch, and she was pointing to her mouth. I picked her up, and looked in there thinking that she was going to have some teeth. She had a mouth full of thrush, the poor baby. I called her doctor, and they told me to bring her in immediately. That he would want to see her. We got there, and the baby is running a fever of 101.6. I had no idea where the fever came from. He checked her out, and everything was all clear. He decided that he was going to go ahead and prescribe her some antibiotics. She ate some ice cream when we got home. Then my parents got her some yogurt to eat tonight because she would cry when anything would touch her moth. She seemed to be able to eat that. I gave her the medicine for the thrush. That was not fun holding her down while I swabbed her sores. She was laughing and playing by the time she went to bed. The sores still look horrible, and I feel terrible that I missed them.

She has also taken to sleeping on my bed until I go to bed. She is wanting to be such a big girl. She is such a joy.

The boys are grounded for the week. They both failed their spelling tests, and then TB has 2 zeros in Bible because he didn't even attempt to say his Bible verses the last 2 weeks. His teacher told him that he could make up the 2 weeks, but she wouldn't give him more than a 50. He will have time to do study them because I am now the proud keeper of 2 cell phones and 2 extra tvs. They will learn that I mean business, and they are going to feel funny come Saturday when they aren't allowed to play outside. They will spend that time studying for the next test until it is time to trick or treat.

I'm going to have to make a doctor's appointment for my shoulder. It is killing me, and I can't lift my arm above my shoulder without sharp pains shooting down my arm. I have no idea what I have done to it. There are certain places that you can touch that it hurts to even touch it. Guess I need to be taking care of myself.

Hubster, I love you. I wish I could have chatted more with you than the few minutes that we got. I hope that you have a wonderful day.

For a day that started off so bad...

it certainly turned out good. Hubster texted me at 730 this morning. I of course ended up missing Sunday school, but we did make it to church. Today was that day though where if anybody even looked at me, I would cry. The mom of the boy that KB stayed with last night came up to talk to me before the service started. I did good. She asked me if I needed anything, and that is when the tears started. I couldn't get them to stop. I composed myself. Told her no that I was fine, and I went into the sanctuary. Where I promptly cried again the next time somebody asked how I was doing. I hate crying. It makes me feel weak. It doesn't really do any good except to make my nose run and my eyes to puff up. Church though was great. The song service was wonderful, and we sang one of my all time favorite songs. "Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone)" by Chris Tomlin. If you have never heard the song, here is the link to the video on youtube. I couldn't embed it here, but I will post the link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pqJsBRFdrA0

Then Pastor C delivered an amazing sermon as always. After church, we went out to lunch with Angie and Michael. It was so nice. They wouldn't let me pay for our food. That was so sweet of them. After church, TB, the Girls, and I ran home for a few hours. We had to return to church tonight. The boys needed to start practicing for the Christmas recital plus we had to pick up KB. I caught myself singing though on the way to church. I was listening to the Christian music station, and I caught myself singing. This is a huge deal to me. It has been forever since I have felt like singing. I don't know what it was that happened between 11 AM and 5 PM, but I was looking forward to going to church. It has been awhile since that has happened. I got to church and 2 different people cornered me. They were telling me what they were going to do. Not giving me a chance to say I was fine. I don't need anything. Then the pastor's wife brought me out a basket of bath goodies. She had written me the sweetest note. It was just so nice. I guess I felt very loved today by our church family. Satan had been trying for months to pull me down, and he had nearly succeeded. God though had a different plan, and He showed me tonight exactly how much people really do care. I can't tell you enough how much I needed that.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to be going to lunch with Angie. I'm hoping that her son and my BG is feeling okay. Here is praying that both of them are just fine tomorrow because it sounds like tomorrow could turn out to be fun.

Hubster, I miss you beyond words. Thank you for the email. I will reply to it. I promise. Just give me a bit to think about it. I need to have the right words. As far as the other email, that is what I'm here for. Know that you are loved and missed not only by me but by about 100 people at church who holler at me all the time asking how you are doing. You will know which people those are. I'm sure of it.

What a long day...

and not in a bad way either. We were on the go from the moment I got up this morning. I'm wiped out, and I'm ready to go to bed.

First off, BG decided that 4 AM was the perfect time to wake up. She finally went back to sleep at 6. KG decided that 630 was a good time to get up. She never went back to sleep. I didn't even get morning coffee this morning. I had to get things together for KB, so that it would all be ready by the time he got home from J's house. KB arrived right at 830. He got dressed, and I ran him up to the football field. Then KG and I went and got some breakfast to bring home for everybody. Got home about 915, and I had to get everybody else ready to go. We left the house around 950 for the football game. KB's team lost 40 to 0. I don't think they gained any yards at all. It looked like they were playing a team that was 2 to 3 years older than them. That is how much bigger the other team was. The boys had fun though, so that is what matters at this point in the game. I didn't think the game was ever going to end, but it finally did around noon. I came home. Got to chat online with Hubster for about 20 minutes, and then I had to leave the house. It makes me feel so bad when I have to leave. Got KB's things ready for tomorrow, and off we went to meet C's mom to drop off KB. He has never spent the night over there. I hope he behaves and has a good time. Then the girls and TB went with me up on base. I had to get some laundry detergent, and it is the cheapest place to get it. I was already over there, so I swung by. We made it home at 415, and I had to leave the house at 445 to get to Boo at the Zoo on time. It was a freaking mad house. We enjoyed the other Seabee families, but I can't take much of crowds. I'm okay for a little while, but then anxiety starts to kick in. We only stayed about an 1.5 before we decided to leave. The kids had a ball though, and that is what matters. TB kept playing bumper cars/stroller with SD and her little boy. They would race when there wasn't people around. Which wasn't very often. The kids were hungry, and TB was wanting Mexican. We were close to Oscar's, so that is where we headed. It was as yummy as always. They have the best Mexican food around. We were leaving and Danny wanted to know where Hubster was. I told him that he had deployed to the Middle East. I made him promise not to tell Hubster that he saw me. I guess the cat is out of the bag. I figure that Oscar's will be one of our first stops once Hubster gets home from the Middle East.

Now, we are back at home. The kids are all asleep, and I'm fixing to be.

Hubster, I'm sorry I had to rush off today. I hate when that happens. I love you, and I hope that you have a wonderful day.

It's Friday!!!!

I don't know why I care so much since I don't work outside the home, but I do care. I care because that means another week has come and gone. That means we are one week closer to this being over.

KB is staying at a friend's house tonight. I made sure that J's parents understood that I have to have him home at 830 in the morning. He has to be up at the football field at 9 for his game. Then he is going to stay with another friend on Saturday night. He has a busy weekend.

I have to run and get the things for the kid's costumes tomorrow. I don't need much for KG. She is going as a cat, and she already has the black jumpsuit. She put it on today, and told me that she was pretty. She also went around today saying dad gum it. I was cracking up at her. I'm hoping that BG is not coming down with a cold. Her nose has been terrible all morning, but their has not been any fever. We went out to eat pizza for supper tonight, and they have one of those machines that have the grabbers for stuffed animals. We ended up winning 3 animals, so we gave one to a little kid that kept saying that he wanted one. He had the biggest smile on his face.

Hubster called on Skype today, but KG hogged him. This is when I hate him not having a phone. He couldn't talk to me because of her. I finally just gave up, and I let them talk to each other. It was really disappointing. I know that she is only 2, but him being on the computer means I can't just lock myself in another room. She shares a room with her sister who was asleep, so I couldn't put her in her room.

Tomorrow is zoo day. We are really looking forward to it. We aren't going to be able to do the pumpkin patch. Money just isn't there plus I have so much to do before the zoo. TB asked if he could take somebody with him. I don't mind taking another kid as long as they pay for themselves. I'm not paying for them to go.

Hubster and I discussed today about how much that he can spend on the kids Christmas. Things are going to be tighter than I like, but I told him to take $50 per kid. He was already looking online to see what he could get them. I hope they appreciate that he is thinking about them on the other side of the world.

I have been doing pretty good today, but I need a break. I need a break from being a mom. I need a break with some other adults. I want nothing more than to go out for an evening with other adults and have dinner and to do something fun. Do I have any takers? Anybody.......? That is what I thought. UGH!

Hubster, I love you. I wish I could have talked or chatted online with you more today. Miss you. We have another week down.

One More Day till the Weekend.

Only one more day till the weekend. The weekend is shaping up to be busy. That is good. We have KB's football game at 10 AM on Saturday. Then we are supposed to go to the Pumpkin Patch, but that might have to be canceled. It will depend on just exactly what time I'm going to be meeting KB's friend for them to pick him up. He is going to spend the night at their house Saturday night. Then we are going to a special thing at the zoo that evening. I think it should be fun. I hope so any way. I wish I still had the boys wagon. That would have been perfect for them at the zoo, but I think the boys broke it. I can't remember. Sunday is our normal church day.

KG continued her day and evening of being a little toot. She has definitely been 2 today. BG has a nasty nose, and I'm hoping she isn't getting sick. Please don't be getting sick. The boys have had good days. KB was filthy when he got home from football practice. The field was muddy from all of the rain from yesterday. He said that practice was great. That he blocked his man like he was supposed to. I told him no to let R pull him down by his face mask any more. All he has to do is to get R on the ground before him. TB came in and got his homework done quickly again. That makes it nice not having to stay on him to get his homework done.

We had a hodgepodge for supper tonight. We had bacon, avocado, and egg sandwiches, macaroni and tomato soup (that BG loved), and mac and cheese with hot dog octopuses. We had a little bit of everything. If you ever get a chance, look for cherry preserves from Smuckers. It is delicious. I found it at the PX the other day, and I love it. It is so good. It is my new favorite jelly.

I'm plugging along and doing good. Hubster mentioned tonight that he had been there a month already. This deployment is moving faster than I could have ever hoped. I know there are days that it creeps. I wish it was over, but I know that one day it is going to be over. I'm looking forward to that day.

2 Year Old for Sale

It is not even 10 AM here yet, and I'm ready to pull my hair out. KG has been up since 5 AM. She woke up at that time wanting something to drink, and she never went back to sleep. That is fine. She thankfully just stayed in bed, so I was able to doze on and off until it was time for the boys to get up. I woke up to the boys sleeping on the floor on each side of my bed. Not a problem. Except when they were getting up, they woke up BG. Ended up getting out of bed then. KG bounced right up. Since KG has been up, she has done the following:

1. She took of BG's diaper because BG was wet. BG then promptly peed on the floor.
2. She emptied out all of the diaper wipes. She balled them up and threw them all over the place.
3. She has jumped on the bed.
4. She has changed clothes 3 times now. She has learned how to dress herself.
5. She isn't neat when she puts the clothes up.
6. She has "helped" BG get into the dryer, and then she has shut the door.
7. She has ran around with a baseball bat. I didn't even know we had a baseball bat.
8. She has emptied out 2 drawers.
9. She has also learned to climb up onto the kitchen island. This allows her to play in the water.
10. She also took one of my roses out of the arrangement and destroyed it.

I needed to run errands today. I don't think I will. I'm not taking her any where. She has done all of this with a great big smile on her face. I do love the child, but she has been on a tear today. I really wouldn't sale her, but I will certainly loan her out if anybody wants to borrow her.