I have been working on a headache of some sort for nearly every day for the past four weeks. Today has been horrible with how bad it will hurt, and then it lets up. I try to get as much done as I can while the head isn't pounding away like a sledge hammer is inside it. The headaches are strange. They are not a migraine because I can tell what a migraine is. This isn't it. These headaches come and go all day. I can be fine one minute and wincing with pain the next. I never know what symptoms might show with each headache. It can be anything from just pain to tingling in my face, clogged ear feeling, medicine head feeling, jumbled up thoughts, to blurry vision. All I know is that I'm starting to worry about them. They are effecting my life. Tuesday night my head was hurting enough that I couldn't concentrate. I was having a hard time with getting things to make sense to me. It was like my brain was jumbled up. It was not a pleasant experience, and it was down right scary. I refuse to drive out of town by myself or with just the kids because I don't know when one of these headaches will hit. I do not like the feeling of not knowing where I am or what is going on. We haven't made it to church in nearly two weeks because of the headaches. When they hit, it wipes me out. I was going to go to the doctor today, but our insurance does not start until February 1. I will be going if the headaches still persist. I also start the three weeks of tests that conclude with a biopsy on February 15. I am ready to be normal again.
We had supper on Saturday night with another couple that we love dearly. Her and I swear our husbands are kin. They act so much alike it is scary. They both pull some of the same stunts, and they both are as sweet as can be. Don't mess with their family though.
I started back to school yesterday. I'm still trying to get a feel of what I believe this semester will be like. I'm having problems concentrating and following sometimes when the headaches start.
We have been talking about changing to a church that is nearer to home. The boys have soundly objected to that, so I'm pretty sure we will keep going where we are. I want to be happy at whatever church we happen to be at. Right now Hubster and I seem to be both struggling with even going. *See above about the two weeks of not being in church* It has nothing to do with the pastor either. We love our pastor and his preaching. It is the drive that is starting to get us. I don't know what will end up happen, but I'm going to pray for God's guidance in this.
Besides the headache, life has been pretty dad gum terrific. The kids are great. The Hubster is great. Things seem to be looking up.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
January is nearly half-way over...
I can't believe it. Where has the time gone? Next week is the start of the spring semester for my college. I just want to be done at this point, and I'm just now starting. I still don't know what exactly I want to do. I'm making contingency plans because it is so hard to get into nursing school. I figure that I need to have a plan B, C, and D in place. I'm not counting on that route working out all that well for me because of how hard it is to get in. That will be okay though. I'm thinking if that route doesn't work, I might go the route of physical therapy. If that doesn't sound like fun, then I might just give education a go.
Hubster and I have decided that we will just stay in the house we are in probably. We are hoping that within the next two years we can go from renting to own from the owner (who we know very well and believes our kids are her grandkids) to outright buying it from her with it being put in our name. We need to get our credit cleaned up, and we are well on our way to getting there according to our last credit score pull. In the meantime, we are going to start fixing it up the way we want to. The first project will probably be the upstairs bathroom or the kitchen. We are also wanting to do some radiant barrier in our attic. We want to completely gut our kitchen and start over. Right now it is a small eat in kitchen, and I want to change it from that to a bar area that we can eat at. We have a large dining room that is not used. We can start eating in there for "family" meals.
Hubster is liking his new job. It seems to be working out very well for him. I'm glad he is liking it so much. The kids are doing great. KB turns 12 in 17 days. I can't believe I will have 2 junior high students next year. That is not possible. I can remember when they both started to school. We are going to talk to the school that KG goes to. We are hoping that might be willing to let BG start school a year early. Her birthday falls on September 4, and you have to be 5 by September 1 to go to Kindergarten. I'm hoping that they will let her start K-4 at 3 and K-5 at 4. The teacher would be okay with BG starting school a year early. If not, then she will just start when she is supposed to.
Hubster and I have decided that we will just stay in the house we are in probably. We are hoping that within the next two years we can go from renting to own from the owner (who we know very well and believes our kids are her grandkids) to outright buying it from her with it being put in our name. We need to get our credit cleaned up, and we are well on our way to getting there according to our last credit score pull. In the meantime, we are going to start fixing it up the way we want to. The first project will probably be the upstairs bathroom or the kitchen. We are also wanting to do some radiant barrier in our attic. We want to completely gut our kitchen and start over. Right now it is a small eat in kitchen, and I want to change it from that to a bar area that we can eat at. We have a large dining room that is not used. We can start eating in there for "family" meals.
Hubster is liking his new job. It seems to be working out very well for him. I'm glad he is liking it so much. The kids are doing great. KB turns 12 in 17 days. I can't believe I will have 2 junior high students next year. That is not possible. I can remember when they both started to school. We are going to talk to the school that KG goes to. We are hoping that might be willing to let BG start school a year early. Her birthday falls on September 4, and you have to be 5 by September 1 to go to Kindergarten. I'm hoping that they will let her start K-4 at 3 and K-5 at 4. The teacher would be okay with BG starting school a year early. If not, then she will just start when she is supposed to.
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Merry Christmas
from our family to yours. We have had a wonderful Christmas. The kids seem to have gotten what they all wanted, and we didn't break the bank or go into debt. I refuse to go into debt for any reason including Christmas. I think that is crazy. Things ended up working out, and the Navy still owes us nearly $3000. Just have to keep on them to get it taken care of. Hopefully Hubster stays on top of it.
TB got his flat screen television that he was wanting, and we got a terrific deal on it. We only paid $285 for a 42in one for his room. I like his better than I like mine. Santa brought him an android tablet that he had been requesting. KB got a bunch of little things, mainly a guitar, a tablet, clothes, and a skateboard. He should be able to give the skateboard a whirl come this week. His foot is much better. I'm half way tempted to not even take him in to see the doctor for a final xray. The girls got a bounce house that is huge. It sits in our family room upstairs, but it is very large. It can be taken outside and played with too. They got a few toys, and Santa brought a Disney princess musical vanity and kitchen. I must have been an extra good girl this year too. I got a cricut and a kindle fire. Both of them things that I had been asking for. I must say that we have been blessed this year.
Can't wait to start the new year off. I'm expecting 2012 to be a fantastic year for our family. I don't believe that I should have to have any surgeries. Plus we are going to start training for a 5k. I can't wait. I plan on losing the last of the weight this year. Looking forward to many blessings. I hope that everybody out there in blogger land has a year filled with them too.
TB got his flat screen television that he was wanting, and we got a terrific deal on it. We only paid $285 for a 42in one for his room. I like his better than I like mine. Santa brought him an android tablet that he had been requesting. KB got a bunch of little things, mainly a guitar, a tablet, clothes, and a skateboard. He should be able to give the skateboard a whirl come this week. His foot is much better. I'm half way tempted to not even take him in to see the doctor for a final xray. The girls got a bounce house that is huge. It sits in our family room upstairs, but it is very large. It can be taken outside and played with too. They got a few toys, and Santa brought a Disney princess musical vanity and kitchen. I must have been an extra good girl this year too. I got a cricut and a kindle fire. Both of them things that I had been asking for. I must say that we have been blessed this year.
Can't wait to start the new year off. I'm expecting 2012 to be a fantastic year for our family. I don't believe that I should have to have any surgeries. Plus we are going to start training for a 5k. I can't wait. I plan on losing the last of the weight this year. Looking forward to many blessings. I hope that everybody out there in blogger land has a year filled with them too.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Bah Humbug
My Christmas spirit went out the window this morning. That is what happens when the Navy shorts you $2800 right before Christmas. Hubster uses his travel card very sparingly when in a class. The Navy happened to mess up the per diem, and they only paid him for staying on base instead of the per diem rate for staying in a hotel. That is a $56 per day difference, and when you pay for expenses yourself out of pocket it can leave you in a pickle. We have dealt numerous times with the Navy being slow in paying travel claims, so you learn quickly it is easier to pay for everything upfront yourself, and then have the Navy pay you. Add this to the fact that his final check from them was short $700, and you quickly start trying to figure out what to do. I thought I was going to be sick, and I don't have any idea how bills will be paid let alone the final bit of Christmas we have left to buy. Yes, I know that everything will work out. It has to. Plus our Tricare got messed up and cancelled, but I believe we might have that issue resolved now. I think. We won't know until I try to get online to make sure that we have coverage.
I'm going to try and get my Christmas spirit back. It isn't about things. It is about people and Jesus. I need to remember that. My friend is coming over tomorrow for a day of baking and candy making. I'm looking forward to it. We should have fun. Now, I just need to finish up my list and run to the store to finish getting the things that are needed.
I'm going to try and get my Christmas spirit back. It isn't about things. It is about people and Jesus. I need to remember that. My friend is coming over tomorrow for a day of baking and candy making. I'm looking forward to it. We should have fun. Now, I just need to finish up my list and run to the store to finish getting the things that are needed.
Monday, November 28, 2011
Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy
It was a great week. Didn't start out all that great, but it certainly ended up wonderful. I have some sort of virus, or so the doctor suspects, that is causing me to throw up. It has overtaken my body for at least three weeks, so he is going to refer me to a specialists. Throwing up blood will tend to make him want to make sure that everything is okay. Thankfully it is just a little bit of blood and not a lot of blood. If I can ever get over this stomach stuff, I will be good to go.
Monday Hubster called telling me he found a flight home for $319. He could get home late Wednesday and leave Saturday back to California. Who could pass up that deal? We certainly didn't. We decided to surprise the kids. They didn't know he was coming home for Thanksgiving. The kids reactions to seeing their daddy was priceless. It would give you a warm and fuzzy feeling. Nothing like hearing your 4 year old scream and laugh when she saw her Daddy at 2 AM. It was priceless, and I did video it. It would bring tears to your eyes. Thursday we had everybody here at my house. I messed the turkey up. I overcooked it. Won't happen again. Otherwise the food was really good if I do say so myself. I don't like turkey anyway. Friday we did some black Friday shopping after all of the crazy people went home which means we went out about 9 AM. We had to get a new tree. Our tree is gorgeous this year. *NTS post picture of beautiful tree*. Saturday we took Hubster to the airport for his trip back to California. BG told me I was mean because I wouldn't let her go with Daddy. Yeap, that is me, mean Mommy. We only have two weeks until he comes home, so this is a piece of cake. Yes, you can hear a smile in my typing. This is going to be a busy couple of weeks, so I'm expecting time to fly by. Amazing how 2 weeks seems like such a short time. Sunday though was what has made my week. We had a special preacher, Dr. Tim Lee, *google him folks if you don't know who he is*. I think he was there to preach at me Sunday morning. It was just exactly what I needed to hear. Revival starts with me. I left that church service Sunday morning with a song in my heart, a lightness in my step, and a smile on my face. I love having that joy, and I missed having it. The stuff that was bothering me, I was able to let it go. It isn't worth it. I have wonderful friends who are there for me if I *very important note there I* would just ask for help if needed or reach out. I know this, but Satan has a way of telling me that no I don't. That is my weakness. Well, I'm not going to let him have this joy. It is mine, and God gave it to me. Last night's service was nearly two hours. It is amazing when you can feel God in your service. He visited our church last night. Those that didn't make it to church last night missed out on a great service. I have to miss church on Wednesday night because of speech class, and I'm bummed about it. I would much prefer to go to church then give a speech. Oh well, I will do what I need to do.
Looking forward to a great week. I get to see one of my best friends on Wednesday. Friday is Ladies Tea at church. Saturday KG has a dance recital outside in the cold, but we do at least get to see fireworks. Sunday we are back at church, and there is a special concert Sunday night. Then Hubster comes home at the end of next week. Have I mentioned that "God is GOOD". Thankful He has filled my schedule so full that I don't have a lot of free time to dwell on how much I miss Hubster.
Monday Hubster called telling me he found a flight home for $319. He could get home late Wednesday and leave Saturday back to California. Who could pass up that deal? We certainly didn't. We decided to surprise the kids. They didn't know he was coming home for Thanksgiving. The kids reactions to seeing their daddy was priceless. It would give you a warm and fuzzy feeling. Nothing like hearing your 4 year old scream and laugh when she saw her Daddy at 2 AM. It was priceless, and I did video it. It would bring tears to your eyes. Thursday we had everybody here at my house. I messed the turkey up. I overcooked it. Won't happen again. Otherwise the food was really good if I do say so myself. I don't like turkey anyway. Friday we did some black Friday shopping after all of the crazy people went home which means we went out about 9 AM. We had to get a new tree. Our tree is gorgeous this year. *NTS post picture of beautiful tree*. Saturday we took Hubster to the airport for his trip back to California. BG told me I was mean because I wouldn't let her go with Daddy. Yeap, that is me, mean Mommy. We only have two weeks until he comes home, so this is a piece of cake. Yes, you can hear a smile in my typing. This is going to be a busy couple of weeks, so I'm expecting time to fly by. Amazing how 2 weeks seems like such a short time. Sunday though was what has made my week. We had a special preacher, Dr. Tim Lee, *google him folks if you don't know who he is*. I think he was there to preach at me Sunday morning. It was just exactly what I needed to hear. Revival starts with me. I left that church service Sunday morning with a song in my heart, a lightness in my step, and a smile on my face. I love having that joy, and I missed having it. The stuff that was bothering me, I was able to let it go. It isn't worth it. I have wonderful friends who are there for me if I *very important note there I* would just ask for help if needed or reach out. I know this, but Satan has a way of telling me that no I don't. That is my weakness. Well, I'm not going to let him have this joy. It is mine, and God gave it to me. Last night's service was nearly two hours. It is amazing when you can feel God in your service. He visited our church last night. Those that didn't make it to church last night missed out on a great service. I have to miss church on Wednesday night because of speech class, and I'm bummed about it. I would much prefer to go to church then give a speech. Oh well, I will do what I need to do.
Looking forward to a great week. I get to see one of my best friends on Wednesday. Friday is Ladies Tea at church. Saturday KG has a dance recital outside in the cold, but we do at least get to see fireworks. Sunday we are back at church, and there is a special concert Sunday night. Then Hubster comes home at the end of next week. Have I mentioned that "God is GOOD". Thankful He has filled my schedule so full that I don't have a lot of free time to dwell on how much I miss Hubster.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
It was one of THOSE weeks...
You know the type of week I am talking about. The type of week that you are glad is over because if it could go wrong it would. It was the type of week where you are glad it is over, and you just pray that the next week will be better even though you are not expecting it too, but you sure can hope and pray right.
Sunday was a great day except the coming home part. Monday was unexceptional. Forgot to pay for KG's dance class, so I'm going to get hit with a late fee when I do pay it. Oops. Tuesday was where it all started to turn dreadfully wrong. Hubster called me Tuesday afternoon with some news that we had to pay a bill that I wasn't expecting, and it had to be paid that day. It was imperative, and that meant coming up with nearly $400 out of thin air. I was so distracted by trying to figure out where money was going to appear from, that I laid my phone down at the grocery store. It walked out of the store with the help of somebody other than me. There goes another $130 that I'm going to have to fork over to buy a new phone. Wednesday was another uneventful day. We made it to church. Then Thursday happened. Thursday KB had some issues at school that I found out about. He is really missing Hubster, and Hubster and I decided that maybe we need to figure out a way for us to make it to California. There is not a support system in place for military spouses at the church we go to. I only know of one other spouse in our church that has a husband in the military. Even though my husband is only in the reserves, he has been gone a lot this year. Maybe it is God's way of telling me that I really need to work to put together that type of ministry because I feel really strongly that there is a ministry there that is being missed. I don't know. All I do know is that I feel alone and adrift right now, and I want nothing more than to have somebody call, text, or email me and see if I need anything when Hubster is gone. I would love for somebody to call and say "Hey, would you like to meet for lunch or dinner. Can I stop by for a chat? What day can I take the girls or the boys for a few hours?" I don't feel like there is anybody I can turn to. Then I feel bad for even wishing that somebody would notice that hey I need a friend here. I'm strong. I should be able to do two months with my eyes closed and my hands tied behind my back. I have retreated back into myself, and that is where I will remain until Hubster gets home in December. Anybody wants to find me, they know how to get a hold of me. Didn't even talk to Hubster on Friday. He was too busy to call. Saturday KG started getting sick, KB hurt his foot, and we went to supper for my mom's birthday. I can't afford to take either one to the doctor until Tuesday when Hubster gets paid. I have started hurting again like I did before my hysterectomy, and I just feel awful. I can't even lay on my right side because of the pain. I go to the doctor on Friday to start the process of seeing what is going on yet again. Yesterday, I figured out the finances, and it doesn't look like a trip to California is doable. I just don't see it happening unless a way opens up. I haven't even told KB yet. He has been on cloud nine with the hope that we get to go. I don't have the heart to tell him yet that it doesn't look possible.
Sunday was a great day except the coming home part. Monday was unexceptional. Forgot to pay for KG's dance class, so I'm going to get hit with a late fee when I do pay it. Oops. Tuesday was where it all started to turn dreadfully wrong. Hubster called me Tuesday afternoon with some news that we had to pay a bill that I wasn't expecting, and it had to be paid that day. It was imperative, and that meant coming up with nearly $400 out of thin air. I was so distracted by trying to figure out where money was going to appear from, that I laid my phone down at the grocery store. It walked out of the store with the help of somebody other than me. There goes another $130 that I'm going to have to fork over to buy a new phone. Wednesday was another uneventful day. We made it to church. Then Thursday happened. Thursday KB had some issues at school that I found out about. He is really missing Hubster, and Hubster and I decided that maybe we need to figure out a way for us to make it to California. There is not a support system in place for military spouses at the church we go to. I only know of one other spouse in our church that has a husband in the military. Even though my husband is only in the reserves, he has been gone a lot this year. Maybe it is God's way of telling me that I really need to work to put together that type of ministry because I feel really strongly that there is a ministry there that is being missed. I don't know. All I do know is that I feel alone and adrift right now, and I want nothing more than to have somebody call, text, or email me and see if I need anything when Hubster is gone. I would love for somebody to call and say "Hey, would you like to meet for lunch or dinner. Can I stop by for a chat? What day can I take the girls or the boys for a few hours?" I don't feel like there is anybody I can turn to. Then I feel bad for even wishing that somebody would notice that hey I need a friend here. I'm strong. I should be able to do two months with my eyes closed and my hands tied behind my back. I have retreated back into myself, and that is where I will remain until Hubster gets home in December. Anybody wants to find me, they know how to get a hold of me. Didn't even talk to Hubster on Friday. He was too busy to call. Saturday KG started getting sick, KB hurt his foot, and we went to supper for my mom's birthday. I can't afford to take either one to the doctor until Tuesday when Hubster gets paid. I have started hurting again like I did before my hysterectomy, and I just feel awful. I can't even lay on my right side because of the pain. I go to the doctor on Friday to start the process of seeing what is going on yet again. Yesterday, I figured out the finances, and it doesn't look like a trip to California is doable. I just don't see it happening unless a way opens up. I haven't even told KB yet. He has been on cloud nine with the hope that we get to go. I don't have the heart to tell him yet that it doesn't look possible.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Sitting in the LAX Airport
waiting to go home after a weekend with the Hubster in Port Hueneme. I love it out here so much. I could live out here. I will try and get some pictures posted soon. I flew Virgin America, and I must say what a ride. I got upgraded to first class on both portions of the flight. I'm spoiled because that is the way to fly. We had a 90 minute couples massage yesterday, and that was heavenly. We walked around Channel Harbor and ate at a seafood place there. Food was okay, but it isn't anything that I would write home about. I was looking for something a little more spectacular based on the reviews, but it was bland. I love driving the PCH. It is such a beautiful drive.
It was very hard to leave Hubster. I held my tears in check until I got into the security line, and then I let a few fall. I consider that pretty good. I am ready to see the kids. They stayed with my parents, and went to visit my newest great niece who was born on Tuesday. What a great birthday to have...11/1/11. She is adorable, and I can't wait to snuggle and kiss on her. Hopefully soon. Flight should be boarding in less than thirty minutes. I'm as ready as I'm ever going to be to get home. I'm praying still for a miracle of someway getting to come and see Hubster for Thanksgiving, but I just don't see it happening. I would love nothing more than to do that.
It was very hard to leave Hubster. I held my tears in check until I got into the security line, and then I let a few fall. I consider that pretty good. I am ready to see the kids. They stayed with my parents, and went to visit my newest great niece who was born on Tuesday. What a great birthday to have...11/1/11. She is adorable, and I can't wait to snuggle and kiss on her. Hopefully soon. Flight should be boarding in less than thirty minutes. I'm as ready as I'm ever going to be to get home. I'm praying still for a miracle of someway getting to come and see Hubster for Thanksgiving, but I just don't see it happening. I would love nothing more than to do that.
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