on my posts, but I have been so busy that I just don't even want to bother with this at night. I just want to go to bed. It has been a blah kind of week. I don't know what is going on, but it has just been blah. Nothing that I can really point to. We finished another month. Plus the month seemed to fly by. I have been able to chat online with Hubster every day. I just can't put my finger on it. I just know that I have been blah. Another Seabee Wife said yesterday that she needed a hug, and I will have to agree. I think that would do wonders. I just want to sit down and cry, but I don't feel that I have that right.
I haven't gotten a thing done as far as packing. I need to see if I can find some moving boxes. I wish that I could start moving some of the things now to the new place, but I have to wait. I would love to go ahead and move some of the things that are for sure going with me. It isn't like I am living in my house right now any way.
I went to the doctor yesterday. Still trying to get the surgery set up. I took the girls with me, and of all days that she had to deliver a baby, it was yesterday. I was chasing the girls all over the place. Needless to say my BP was a tad higher than she wanted, so I get to go back on Friday. I'm going to see if I can find somebody to watch them for me while I go. Plus she gave me another prescription. This is the reason I need to lose weight. I am the world's worst patient when it comes to taking meds. I forget them all the time.
TB's teacher had a talk with the principal. She just doesn't know what to do with him. He doesn't act like he cares at all any more. I don't know what to do make him understand how important that it is for him to do good in school. I can ground him and talk to him till I'm blue in the face, and nothing seems to work. I am at a loss. Plus he keeps telling me he is fat. Where he has heard that, I don't know. It makes me feel bad. He isn't fat. Yes, I watch what they eat. I don't want them to be fat like me. Did I do something to have that rub off on him? Maybe I really am the worst parent ever.
KB had 2 hours of football practice last night. One of his coaches that had walked away from the team came back. Maybe they still have a chance to grow up. I have just never understood why adults act that way at kids sporting events. KB is still struggling in school too. Plus him and his brother are fighting like crazy. I am really tired of it.
The girls are doing great. I was looking at pictures of them from last October, and I couldn't believe how much that they have changed in a year. It made me sad, but not sad enough to have another kid. I really am done. I feel done. No way do I want another kid.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
This is Monday's post. Yes, I know it is Tuesday.
I really don't give a flying fig about that. Yesterday was Seabee Wife Day instead of calling it Mother's Day Out, that is what I have named it. It is usually a glorious day. I find myself 5 hours kid free. This week was different. I have figured out that I enjoy hanging out with other adults. I was lonely yesterday. I was lonely all day long, and it was even worse Monday night.
The day started off with me dropping off the girls at Ms. H's house. KG was hollering that she wanted out as soon as she saw whose house we were at. She wanted to go play. BG cried for all of 5 minutes, and then she played. I then ran to Target where I was trying to get ideas for Christmas. I decided to get a card to send to Hubster. I was crying while i was reading them. The lady that was stocking the cards kept looking at me funny. After I was done in Target, I went and had lunch at Don Pablo's. The fajitas were yummy. The highlight of my day was going grocery shopping at the commissary. That was fun, but at least now my kids won't starve to death. That plus I don't have to eat out as much. That cost way to much money. The girls were happy to see me when I picked them up.
KB didn't have football practice last night. They forgot about how dark it gets so early. He gets to have a 2 hour practice tonight. Oh joy. KB also had to have new shoes because his busted. TB has been telling me for weeks that he needs new shoes, so I told him to keep his shoe price under $40. He didn't want to listen, and he told me all of the shoes are ugly that are under $40. Guess who doesn't have a new pair of shoes. Totally lost it with him on the way home. He just hasn't learned about the filter between his brain and his mouth. I'm tired of the attitude and him telling me that he NEVER gets any thing. We are now going to go and volunteer some where, so that he can see just exactly how well he does have it. KB did end up with a new pair of shoes, and they were on sale for half price. TB is going to learn that when I say you have this amount to spend, that is what I mean.
Yesterday was rough for me. I don't know if it was something in the air or what the deal was. I was just very sad. I was also very lonely. I don't care how many people you are surrounded by, when the person that you love the most isn't here with you, then you are lonely. It seems to have been a common theme yesterday among the Seabee wives. I had quite a few tell me the exact same thing. I was trying to find a card to send to Hubster, and I was crying reading them. Because i wasn't at home most of the day, Hubster called me on my cell. Except that where he was at, they were having a hail storm. He couldn't hear, so he had to go. Then when he called back, I was checking out at the commissary. I had to go, and he never got a chance to call back.
I have an appointment today with the OB/GYN. Hoping that this means that we can finally get a surgery date set. Praying that the BP is okay. Plus my appointment is at noon. I hope the girls behave themselves. They are going with me. Otherwise I guess I need to go to my primary to see if there is something else that will work.
The day started off with me dropping off the girls at Ms. H's house. KG was hollering that she wanted out as soon as she saw whose house we were at. She wanted to go play. BG cried for all of 5 minutes, and then she played. I then ran to Target where I was trying to get ideas for Christmas. I decided to get a card to send to Hubster. I was crying while i was reading them. The lady that was stocking the cards kept looking at me funny. After I was done in Target, I went and had lunch at Don Pablo's. The fajitas were yummy. The highlight of my day was going grocery shopping at the commissary. That was fun, but at least now my kids won't starve to death. That plus I don't have to eat out as much. That cost way to much money. The girls were happy to see me when I picked them up.
KB didn't have football practice last night. They forgot about how dark it gets so early. He gets to have a 2 hour practice tonight. Oh joy. KB also had to have new shoes because his busted. TB has been telling me for weeks that he needs new shoes, so I told him to keep his shoe price under $40. He didn't want to listen, and he told me all of the shoes are ugly that are under $40. Guess who doesn't have a new pair of shoes. Totally lost it with him on the way home. He just hasn't learned about the filter between his brain and his mouth. I'm tired of the attitude and him telling me that he NEVER gets any thing. We are now going to go and volunteer some where, so that he can see just exactly how well he does have it. KB did end up with a new pair of shoes, and they were on sale for half price. TB is going to learn that when I say you have this amount to spend, that is what I mean.
Yesterday was rough for me. I don't know if it was something in the air or what the deal was. I was just very sad. I was also very lonely. I don't care how many people you are surrounded by, when the person that you love the most isn't here with you, then you are lonely. It seems to have been a common theme yesterday among the Seabee wives. I had quite a few tell me the exact same thing. I was trying to find a card to send to Hubster, and I was crying reading them. Because i wasn't at home most of the day, Hubster called me on my cell. Except that where he was at, they were having a hail storm. He couldn't hear, so he had to go. Then when he called back, I was checking out at the commissary. I had to go, and he never got a chance to call back.
I have an appointment today with the OB/GYN. Hoping that this means that we can finally get a surgery date set. Praying that the BP is okay. Plus my appointment is at noon. I hope the girls behave themselves. They are going with me. Otherwise I guess I need to go to my primary to see if there is something else that will work.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Another Month Down.
It seems like the month of October flew by. I really can't believe that it is over. I'm hoping that the rest of the time is going to be the same way. I really do.
Not much happened on Sunday except that I was informed that we will be moving on the 7th instead of the 14th. Wasn't expecting that. This means that I'm going to get to have lots of fun trying to get things packed. Thankfully I don't have to be out of my house until the 30th, so I can take my time doing that house.
The kids are doing good. Nothing exciting happened yesterday at all. It was a very ho hum kind of day. Went to Sunday school and to evening service. Didn't really talk to any body. I was a few minutes late walking into Sunday school, and somebody handed me a piece of paper and told me to fill it out with my name and phone number on it. I had no idea what I was signing up for. It is a way for our Sunday school class to get to know each other better, so I am now supposed to meet another couple for dinner or something before Dec. 6. I already feel a little awkward going to Sunday school when the other half of our couple is in the Middle East. Oh well, the couple that I got are new to the area, and he retired from the Marine corp. What are the odds?
Today is Monica's Day Out. Isn't my name of my day catchy? I have no idea what I'm going to do. I don't have any body to meet. I think I like having somebody to meet better. I'm starting back on my diet today. I plan on being serious about it. I'm also going to start back to the gym. I have to do something. I don't like this blob that I have become. It is disheartening.
Not much happened on Sunday except that I was informed that we will be moving on the 7th instead of the 14th. Wasn't expecting that. This means that I'm going to get to have lots of fun trying to get things packed. Thankfully I don't have to be out of my house until the 30th, so I can take my time doing that house.
The kids are doing good. Nothing exciting happened yesterday at all. It was a very ho hum kind of day. Went to Sunday school and to evening service. Didn't really talk to any body. I was a few minutes late walking into Sunday school, and somebody handed me a piece of paper and told me to fill it out with my name and phone number on it. I had no idea what I was signing up for. It is a way for our Sunday school class to get to know each other better, so I am now supposed to meet another couple for dinner or something before Dec. 6. I already feel a little awkward going to Sunday school when the other half of our couple is in the Middle East. Oh well, the couple that I got are new to the area, and he retired from the Marine corp. What are the odds?
Today is Monica's Day Out. Isn't my name of my day catchy? I have no idea what I'm going to do. I don't have any body to meet. I think I like having somebody to meet better. I'm starting back on my diet today. I plan on being serious about it. I'm also going to start back to the gym. I have to do something. I don't like this blob that I have become. It is disheartening.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Happy Halloween!
KB's football team won their second football game today. They won 42 to 0. The thing was that their head coach and one of the assistant coaches stepped down due to conflicts between the coaches. It seems that 4 men can't behave themselves in a civilised manner. This win means that KB will be going to the playoffs, so instead of 1 more week of football, we have 2 at least. They have improved each week. You can really tell a difference in the way they play.
I took the kids trick or treating. KG was a lion. BG was a tiger. KB was a ninja, and I have no idea what TB was. I think he just wanted candy. KG hated trick or treating the first couple of times. TB griped because he wanted to go ToT with his friends. I was on my way home because KG was screaming and crying, so I told TB that he could go ahead and go with his friends. KB said that he wanted to go home. We decided though that we would ToT on the way home. KG really got into it. We ended up staying out later than TB. KG though said the bucket of candy was hers. She won't share. That isn't shocking at all.
I had stopped at Kohl's today to get the boys one of their Christmas presents. They decided to go through the basket to hunt for something. I made them put the presents up. I know they would have enjoyed the remote control helicopters.
Other than that, today has been very uneventful. I really missed Hubster tonight. It just isn't the same with him gone. I'm tired tonight, and I'm fixing to head to bed.
I took the kids trick or treating. KG was a lion. BG was a tiger. KB was a ninja, and I have no idea what TB was. I think he just wanted candy. KG hated trick or treating the first couple of times. TB griped because he wanted to go ToT with his friends. I was on my way home because KG was screaming and crying, so I told TB that he could go ahead and go with his friends. KB said that he wanted to go home. We decided though that we would ToT on the way home. KG really got into it. We ended up staying out later than TB. KG though said the bucket of candy was hers. She won't share. That isn't shocking at all.
I had stopped at Kohl's today to get the boys one of their Christmas presents. They decided to go through the basket to hunt for something. I made them put the presents up. I know they would have enjoyed the remote control helicopters.
Other than that, today has been very uneventful. I really missed Hubster tonight. It just isn't the same with him gone. I'm tired tonight, and I'm fixing to head to bed.
What a Football Game!
I don't have much of a voice this morning because I yelled a LOT last night. It was a GREAT game. Our team won 17 to 14. They clinched a playoff berth for the first time since 2003. The game started with both teams scoring touchdowns on their first drives. Then SS went on to score a field goal to take a 10 to 7 lead. With 5 minutes left in the first half, the other tear went ahead 14 to 10. With time running out the Indians (the other team) made it down to the 1 yard line, but time had expired in the half. The Indians went into half time leading14 to 10. We got the opening kick off, and SS marched it down the field for a 17 to 14 lead. It was a game of defense from that point on. With 5 minutes left in the game, the Indians turned the ball over on downs. SS was marching down the field, and there was only 20 seconds left in the game. SS had 4th down at the Indians 8, when we fumbled the ball. Their player picked up the ball and ran it back to SS's 30 yard line. They had 4 chances to get into the end zone, but our defense held them. We won 17 to 14. It was exciting. It was a great game. SS guaranteed themselves a playoff spot for the first time since 2003. I'm hoping that the first playoff game isn't so far away that I can't go. Oh please don't be. Oh please don't be.
In other news, the girls got themselves 2 pairs of shoes each and 3 outfits yesterday. They had to have new dress shoes for church, and KG has outgrown everything. I can't believe how big my little girl is getting. The boys are doing good. They are both ungrounded until I hear about this weeks test scores. We found out that we are going to be moving on November 21. I'm not looking forward to that. My parents are moving on the 14th, and then we are moving on the 21st. My parents are buying a 2 story 4 bedroom house, so we are going to move in with them until March. That will give me some time to really save some money. That way we can move into a bigger house. We pretty much stay here now any way. I've already disconnected everything at our house but electric and water. I gave our notice to our landlord. I really wish he had a little bit bigger house in the area. He is so nice, and I really enjoy dealing with him. If anybody wants to come help us move, you are more than welcome too. We could use all the help we can get.
KB is either going to be in the playoffs come November 14, or he will be in a weekend tournament on the 14th. We are not sure which yet. We should know more at the end of today. He has a football game at 3. I can't wait to see him play. I'm hoping that they will get another win.
I got to talk to Hubster yesterday for 40 minutes on the phone. It was so nice to hear his voice. I love you Hubster. I miss you!
In other news, the girls got themselves 2 pairs of shoes each and 3 outfits yesterday. They had to have new dress shoes for church, and KG has outgrown everything. I can't believe how big my little girl is getting. The boys are doing good. They are both ungrounded until I hear about this weeks test scores. We found out that we are going to be moving on November 21. I'm not looking forward to that. My parents are moving on the 14th, and then we are moving on the 21st. My parents are buying a 2 story 4 bedroom house, so we are going to move in with them until March. That will give me some time to really save some money. That way we can move into a bigger house. We pretty much stay here now any way. I've already disconnected everything at our house but electric and water. I gave our notice to our landlord. I really wish he had a little bit bigger house in the area. He is so nice, and I really enjoy dealing with him. If anybody wants to come help us move, you are more than welcome too. We could use all the help we can get.
KB is either going to be in the playoffs come November 14, or he will be in a weekend tournament on the 14th. We are not sure which yet. We should know more at the end of today. He has a football game at 3. I can't wait to see him play. I'm hoping that they will get another win.
I got to talk to Hubster yesterday for 40 minutes on the phone. It was so nice to hear his voice. I love you Hubster. I miss you!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
I Get the Worst Parent Ever Award
I'm going to win the award for it today. I accidentally locked KG in my van. When I pull the van into the garage, I always open the sun roof and roll down the windows. I leave my keys in the console. That way the kids don't go running off with them. It was a little chilly outside, so I cracked open the sunroof about 8 inches. I threw the keys into the console. When I got out of the van, I hit the lock button with my elbow. Then I shut the door. As soon as I shut the door, I knew exactly what I had done. KG just laughed for the first 10 minutes as we tried to get it unlocked. Then she started screaming. I remembered that my car insurance had road side assistance, so I gave them a call. They told me it was going to be 20 minutes to get to me. My dad made it home, and he ended up getting her out using a golf club and he attached a thick clothes hanger to the end with tape. He was able to push the unlock button. She was stuck in there for 40 minutes. I felt terrible.
KG woke up this morning at 230, and she was awake till about 3. At which point, BG woke up and screamed for 2 solid hours. I couldn't get her calmed down. She finally fell back asleep at 530. I had to get up a little after 7. The girls decided not to nap today either. What was up with that? I was so tired, that all I wanted to do was sleep.
TB announced to me at 9 PM that he still had homework. He has 5 comp. checks in science due tomorrow. There is one of them that I have no idea how in the world that he can do it. It is one of those that you label. Hmmmm, what to do.
I got to chat online with Hubster today for a bit. I teared up when he said good night. I miss him. Somebody said the other day that this feels like it is getting harder each day instead of easier. I miss him more and more each day. We will just keep chugging along. Each day down is one day closer.
KG woke up this morning at 230, and she was awake till about 3. At which point, BG woke up and screamed for 2 solid hours. I couldn't get her calmed down. She finally fell back asleep at 530. I had to get up a little after 7. The girls decided not to nap today either. What was up with that? I was so tired, that all I wanted to do was sleep.
TB announced to me at 9 PM that he still had homework. He has 5 comp. checks in science due tomorrow. There is one of them that I have no idea how in the world that he can do it. It is one of those that you label. Hmmmm, what to do.
I got to chat online with Hubster today for a bit. I teared up when he said good night. I miss him. Somebody said the other day that this feels like it is getting harder each day instead of easier. I miss him more and more each day. We will just keep chugging along. Each day down is one day closer.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Trunk or Treat
We had trunk or treat at church tonight. BG is still sick, so she stayed home with Grandma and Grandpa. KG hated it at first. Some of the costumes really scared her. The boys didn't want to do the trunk or treat first, so they went into the gym and played carnival games. When they were done with that, they came back outside. They started getting panicky because they so lightening. That meant they didn't do the trunk or treat, so they didn't get any candy. Oh well, they still have trick or treating on Saturday. KG did end up having fun when she realized that if she put out her bucket, that people would give her things. It was really cute. She would say thank you, and then head off for the next trunk. Lots of people at church checking on me and talking to me tonight. It was very nice with how busy that place was. Needless to say I got lots of hugs tonight. Hugs that were needed.
I've been working on a trip to Paris for a customer. Who will eventually buy it, but until he does, he is a pain in the butt.
I started my paperwork today to start back to school. Getting excited and nervous about this all at the same time. I'm hoping that I can do it with 4 kids. It is something that I want to do for myself though. That is important to me.
I'm supposed to meet another wife tomorrow for supper for her birthday. It should be fun. I'm going to take the girls with me. They had best be on their best behavior. I talked to another wife tonight who has had a very rough 2 months. I hope that she knows that she is loved, and that there are lots of prayers going up for her and her family.
Haven't really gotten to chat a lot with Hubster over the last week. They have been busy, and then the day that he has a chance to chat, I was busy. I miss talking to him. I didn't realize exactly how much that I would miss him or miss hearing his voice. I don't think any thing can prepare you for that loneliness.
I've been working on a trip to Paris for a customer. Who will eventually buy it, but until he does, he is a pain in the butt.
I started my paperwork today to start back to school. Getting excited and nervous about this all at the same time. I'm hoping that I can do it with 4 kids. It is something that I want to do for myself though. That is important to me.
I'm supposed to meet another wife tomorrow for supper for her birthday. It should be fun. I'm going to take the girls with me. They had best be on their best behavior. I talked to another wife tonight who has had a very rough 2 months. I hope that she knows that she is loved, and that there are lots of prayers going up for her and her family.
Haven't really gotten to chat a lot with Hubster over the last week. They have been busy, and then the day that he has a chance to chat, I was busy. I miss talking to him. I didn't realize exactly how much that I would miss him or miss hearing his voice. I don't think any thing can prepare you for that loneliness.
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